Unknown Sensations

Chapter thirty seven

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Harley

The kitchen watch read , 02:59 when my stomach growled loudly , Peanut was hungry . I was hungry .

Pancakes and syrup with milk ? Yeah it seemed like a good combination , except it would be a killer combination had there been coffee instead of milk . Another part of me that I'll be cutting off for the next upcoming seven months .

She's growing alright , not too fast to draw attention on me anyway but she's growing and I'll have to tell the hospital crew about it . I screw my face up when think about their reaction . I know Nick told the others he thinks I'm lesbian for not paying attention to any of the male stuff at work .

When I'm on my second pancake , the door slowly opens and closes after a second . She let out hasty ragged deep breaths as her back is facing me . Obviously she thinks she's alone , I mean I'm awfully silent and sitting in the dark . Some creep for watching her lose her shit without her knowing .

She murmurs some incoherent words under her breath . She's going through something . Something must have happened . I watch her for a good five minutes before she turns and flickers the lights on. Gasping and jumping , placing her small hand on her chest , a look of pure shock and horror takes over her face .

I take in her appearance , the first thing that captures my attention is the dark circles under her eyes . They're so prominent it's like her eyes are being pushed back inside , her cheekbones are showing . I know she has full chubby cheeks so seeing her like this breaks my heart . Her facial look screams , I'm tired , I haven't slept in days . Taking in the rest of her appearance , my heart shutters even more .

What is happening to her ? And why don't I have a clue on what's happening in her life .

Her normal hoodie that almost hugs at her breast in hanging loose , like a hanger , except in this case she's the one being hanged . She looks so fragile and small . She looks like the patients undergoing chemotherapy . I let out a small gasp of pure shock as my eyes linger longer on her chest before trailing down her waist.

What happened to her ? I mean I know I haven't seen her in what , a few weeks ? Sure we chat every now and then but I didn't expect to see her like this . She lost half of her weight , it's not a good look seeing she was already just below normal weight . The small curves she had , aren't visible anymore . The tights glove her .

Am I such a bad person that I didn't feel the need to physically check up on my best friend ? Was I so distracted that I didn't stop to think about my best friend ?

Finally my eyes find hers and all they show is sorrow and pain . My own eyes fill with tears as I look at this version of my best friend . My feet seem to work on their on as they carry me to her .She feels so fragile in my arms but I don't care , she needs me . I sniff her , at least she still smells like herself . She sobs into my neck and I let her be , my own tears blurring my vision .

What happened to us ?

" Oh Anne , I am so sorry I wasn't there for you ," I sob in her neck and she lets out a loud heart wrenching cry , it pierced my heart . She continues her weeping until my neck is soaking with her tears .

"Talk to me , baby what happened ? Why do you look so horrible?" I cursed myself for attacking her with such questions but I need to know .