Unknown Sensations

Chapter twenty one

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Harley

I stood with my ear near the slightly opened door , trying to make out the words of the conversations . I also tried making out the feminine voice , I've been eavesdropping ever since I heard her say his name . They were talking in soft hushed voices , not once did I hear him answer her in his commanding tone . " Does she know yet ?" I heard her ask him . I pressed my ear closer to the door, wanting to hear his reply . " Of course not and don't force me to tell her because I won't . It's already difficult, having to hide the uncertainty of these sensations from her " He answered in a low voice .

I was jealous to say at least , he spoke so tender with her , he composed himself . I was about to enter when a voice startled me . " Eavesdropping on your first day ?" I jumped , turning around and was met with a fine looking dark skinned man . He was laughing at me with raised eyebrows. " I'm sorry for disturbing your spying , were you scouting out your competition ?" He asked. I couldn't help but drool at him , he was wearing a blue shirt and matching ripped jeans . He finished off the look with matching black converse sneakers . " Competition?" I asked , oblivious to his question . " Yes , although Dr. Dooecha isn't deemed competition to a surgeon " he clarified . "Dr Dooecha , is who's in there?" I asked again , he nodded, pulling me away from the door . " Yes and you're standing overly too close to the door . Let's head down to the cafeteria , grab lunch huh ?" .

I didn't realise, I was almost visible to the one's inside the room ." Right " I said , walking away from the door with him .

After walking for a while , we sat down at the table around the corner , drinking juice and having pie . " So what brings you to Chastain Memorial Hospital ?" He asked . I chewed of the contents in my mouth before answering . " I'm a transfer surgeon from M.P.H . I had an incident yesterday , I was attacked by a former sponsor , who by the way caused a scene and threatened me . So management said something along these lines ' This is for your own good and protection , maybe you could return after this blows over ' ". I explained and he had his mouth opened in an O shape . " Wow , basically they shoved you aside , I'm Nick by the way , head of surgeons " he said introducing himself . "Well I'm Harley MacKesie " I introduced myself with a small smile . Nick flashed me a smile of his own . " I know , I researched you when I was informed about an additional member in my ER " . Right of course , I didn't say anything after that .

" So are you ready to get your hands bloody ?" He asked in a playful voice .

" Oh but of course , so what can you tell me about Dr Dooecha?" I leaned in closer to him , prying for information. He shot me a look before leaning in forward . "Well rumours have it that she's the most paid doctor in this hospital and the entire province " he started . " You lie!" I exclaimed . " I'm telling you , oh and she has this man that always comes here on Tuesdays , he stays here for five hours at least ." He added . I swallowed my saliva at this information , today was Tuesday and Spencer was in her room . My mind began to wonder about all the possible things they could be doing during the five hours .

" Do you know who the man is ?" I fished for more but he brushed me off . " Harley, what's going on ? " . I knew my prying made him suspicious. " Nothing is going on , it's that she came out number one in the overall list of top doctors and to be working in the same building she is , is such an honour " I lied . Luckily for me, Nick looked like he believed me . " What number were you ?" He asked me , " Number three " I said , eating the last piece of my pie . He poked me repeatedly , " That's fantastic , I was number six . I'm debating whether we should switch roles ". He joked , I brushed it off with a laugh .

The rest of the day went by slow , that could have been because I was still new in this hospital and I was adjusting . The staff members were welcoming , I've had a few good looking doctors hit on me , female doctors too . This hospital was quite bigger than Modderfontein and the food in the cafeteria was a lot better too . I was happy, I wouldn't be seeing Amy's face everyday . Although the drive was an hour longer , this meant I had to set my alarm two hours before my normal wake up time .

I was now sitting in the cafeteria with three more colleagues, Kim was an ER nurse , Carmen worked in the lab room and Josh was a resident surgeon . We were talking among ourselves and Josh gave us an insight on the week's top gossip when Carmen whistled, shifting the attention to her . " Damn , a man like this in my bed would do me good " Kim fanned herself . " I would bang that too !" Tracey said in passing . I looked over my shoulder and saw Spencer walking out of the cafeteria , I couldn't see Dr Dooecha's face . I checked the time and indeed , it was exactly five hours since they were together in her office . My heart sank at the exchange . She wrapped her hands around his neck and he held her waist . I watched the hug and analyzed his behavior . He didn't tense up when she touched him . It suddenly became too much for me to bare . " Excuse me " I said pushing my body out of the chair and walking towards the bathroom .
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" You okay ?" He asked , watching me closely . Of course I was not okay , I watched my boyfriend become intimate with a colleague after spending hours in her office . " Yes , sure . It was a long day ." I said , sipping the wine . " It's just that , since we got here , all you've been doing is drinking wine ." He said , he was pissing me off . It's not like he didn't know which hospital , I was being transferred to but not once did he call and check up on me . " Where were you today ?" I asked him . He brought his glass to his lips and took a sip before answering me . " I was at the office , I had an important meeting with a few business partners." He said . I took the wine bottle and drank from it . He just lied straight to my face , what else has he been lying about ? . "Okay " I said , standing up and walking to his whiskey cabinet . I took a bottle of Highland Ladd and chunk it down . I coughed and chocked , I raised the black bottle again but he snatched it out of my hand . " Enough , what's going on with you ?" He questioned . You are what's wrong with me ! I wanted to scream at him but I bit my tongue and shook my head . " Do you have anything you want to tell me !?" I asked raising my voice at him .

He let out a sigh , "Come " he said , walking into the lounge and sitting down . I stood next to him , watching him . He pat a seat next to him , " Sit ." He said , raising his eyebrows at me . I clicked my tongue and sat down , leaving space between us . "There's something I've been meaning to talk to you about , rather tell you ". He began , I silently prayed he wasn't breaking up with me . When I didn't say anything , he took it upon himself to elaborate . " Business back in Sandhurst has been taking a strain and it needs my attention so I'll be flying out there tomorrow morning." He said . Right business . "How long will you be gone for ?" I asked , keeping my poker face on . His eyes moved from me to his hands . " Three weeks " he said , chocking me out of air . I couldn't hold the tears that escaped my eyes .

I didn't know what to believe anymore . The man just lied straight to my face and didn't even look guilty about it and now he just dropped a bombshell on me . I was loss of words , I just cried to myself , I winced when his hand attempted to touch me . I remembered how he had touched her earlier on . I didn't want to have him the same way she did . I stood up and he stood up with me . "What's wrong Angel?" He asked . I rolled my eyes at him , look at him faking concern . I bet he called her that too . " I'd like to go home , I'm tired " I said with a sigh . He shook his head , " That's bullshit and you know it so you better start talking." He warned . Normally I would have panicked but today I was just livid . " Nothing , you'll call me or whatever " I said pushing past him but he held me and brought his lips to mine . " Stop it " I pushed him away but he bit my bottom lip . " Kiss me Harley ." He told me . I gave up and kissed him back but I didn't want to get carried away . " Goodbye Spencer." I gave him a last peck on the mouth and left him in the lounge .

As soon as I closed the door behind me . I let it all out , I cried my heart out . I sat on the steps and cried until my sobs grew heavy and ugly . He picked me from behind and walked me back inside the house . He led me to his bedroom and gently placed me on his bed . I turned away from him and cried silently . He undid my bun and started massaging my scalp , he didn't utter a word but he kept playing with my hair until I didn't feel the hair that normally came to my shoulders . And I was too emotionally drained to lift my head up . "You keep breaking my heart but still I want you even then ." I mumbled myself to sleep .

I heard him shift from the bed and mumbled under his breath , clearly not wanting me to hear . " I'd kill everyone who breaks your heart , me included " . I didn't get a chance to process his words because I fell asleep . Perhaps we wanted different things .