Unknown Sensations

Chapter thirty

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Harley

Playing with Karishma always brings thoughts about the future . I wondered how it'd be like to go through all the processes of pregnancy , the everyday morning sicknesses- the vomiting , the nauseousness , the dizziness every now and then and the weird cravings . Getting through the first trimester with emotions sky high and the monthly doctor's appointments . I often dreamt about going to find out the baby's gender with my husband , the excitement from the both of us or hearing his/her first heartbeat .

The sleepless nights I would have and buying clothes twice my size , the pregnancy glow and the heavy feet . I wanted to experience every single moment of being pregnant and join the pregnancy classes -the yoga classes , the pre-birth classes where they teach pregnant mommies about breast feeding and all the precautions they need to take before labour . Of course I wouldn't need most of these classes because I already know what to do but still it would mean the world to me , being called Mom would bring so much joy in my life , a baby with Spencer .

" Lele , my hot chocolate!" Her squeaky voice pulled me out of my fantasies . I put the two cups of hot chocolate on the tray , walking over to the cabinet , I take out a packet of marshmallows and syrup for my pancakes. I walked back to the counter and placed them down on the tray next to the two cups . I cautiously lifted the tray off from the counter and walked slowly towards the lounge .

A huge smile tugged on my face , watching this bubbly girl snuggled up in a blanket with her hazel eyes fixed on the screen . She watched the movie with so much admiration , my fantasy about having children with Spencer resurfaced . " Look what I have , Princess!" I exclaimed , setting the tray nicely on the table . She immediately jumped up from the couch and grabbed the marshmallow packet , " Marshmallows , thank you Lele !" She said in a mouthful smile . She had a cute teeth less smile but it was still warm and genuine . " It's a pleasure , princess," I said tucking her in the blanket . I took a cup and handed it to her , of course she graciously took the cup and buried her nose inside the cup . " Hot chocolate! Tasty !" Her squeaky voice exclaimed a little too loud , "I'm glad you like it , princess." I said in between a chuckle .

We watched the movie in silence , with her gushing over Mulan , " I want to be brave like Princess Mulan , Lele !" She said clapping her hands together . " But you're already brave princess , don't wish to be someone else ,you know why ?" I started . She stopped watching the movie and turned her round face to me , "Why?" Her voice coming out slurred , " Because you my princess are so unique and special. You're my brave Princess Riri ," she smiled and nodded , "I'm brave Princess Riri!" She exclaimed excitedly . Good , Justin descended the stairs and stood at entrance of the lounge , he glared at us and frowned . " What's wrong Juju?" Little Riri asked her brother who softened up his face , " Where's my food ?" He questioned . " Everything you need is in the kitchen , Justin ." I said to him , he murmured underneath his breath while dragging his feet to the kitchen . " Such a baby ," Karishma sighed , palming her forehead .I couldn't help but laugh at her , she's too witty for her age .

Justin and I's relationship was improving with each visit , he's no more closed off , he makes makes jokes now and I've been deemed to cool by him ever since I picked him up from school with Spencer's Porsche , he said and I quote , " all the girls notice me now." This was a huge improvement , " Uhm Harley , there's someone here for you !" It was Justin , who called me from the kitchen . With a groan , I removed the blanket from my lap and tried to stand up , only to fall back my butt , I was dizzy for a moment but I managed to stand up , taking the empty cups plate and syrup with me . I strutted towards the kitchen but halted in my steps when I saw Spencer in grey jeans and a grey baseball jacket with white converse sneakers . He managed to make a simple outfit look good . I also noticed he had paper bags in both his hands . I watched the interaction between the two of them , he stared down at Justin in a stoic expression while Justin had his walls up and glowering at him too .