y/n pov:
it's been approximately 8days back in new jersey, it's been great mainly because i haven't run into mattia the whole time we've been here. but i know he's in his study, even a deaf person can hear the orders he barks at his men, sometimes i have to take sav out the back to try make it less loud for her. but she don't mind seeing as mattia got a whole playground and pool installed for sav and sav only.
once i even contemplated wether i should go up there and tell him to shut the fuck up, but i'm sure whatever i say or do doesn't have an effect on him no more, he made that clear when he started avoiding me like i'm the plague.
"mommy where's daddy" sav asks, she didn't look up from her dolls she was playing with, but when she finally did i couldn't help but answer.
"he's busy working baby, i'm sure he'll come see you soon" i say trying to sound convincing but i'm sure she picked up in the lie. but she still nodded and let out a yawn. "nap time" i smile and she nods again and starts walking towards her bed.
i put her to sleep and on cue i heard a loud bang come from the one and onlys study, i let out a sigh and let him take his anger out on everything in that room.
his rampage went on longer than usual and savs eyebrows scrunched in her sleep meaning she was gonna wake soon. i really didn't want to go to his room and now more than ever i was hoping the boys were here to calm him. but they weren't we were here alone, with a bunch of guards who are shit scared to even go near his room.
i grew some balls, well not literally and stormed up to his room. the closer i got the more worried i was getting not for me but for him. i made it to the door and hesitantly pushed it open, he carried on letting his anger consume him and i was scared to even go near him to be quite honest. "mattia" my voice was quiet but i know he heard me.
i walked towards him ready for anything to fly my way, "mattia calm down please" i say quiet as fuck. "fuck" he shouted and landed his fist into the wall i front of him.
i was close enough and held his shoulder, "baby please" i blurt out and instant regret filled me, ok i know i didn't just say that. he turned to me and at the same time he pulled his hand out the wall.
"what did you just say" he frowns, i cowered away taking my hand off him, i took a step back and shrugged ready for him to embarrass me. "sorry" i say almost as a whisper, "amore are you scared of me" he asks lifting my chin so i'm staring at him. i shivered at his touch but quickly shook my head.
i didn't expect what would come next, he pulled me into his chest squeezing me tightly, like if he let me go he'd lose it again. his chin rested on my head and his heartbeat was slowing down as was his breathing. "i'm sorry amore".
a/n: just a short chapter sorry for the wait yall, i been a lazy mf
