i cleaned up mattias wounds, the room was filled with silence but his stare burnt holes in my face. i didn't dare look at him though.
i finished up and started to leave his room to check on sav. before i left i stopped and faced him only to realise he was already looking at me, "next time keep it down sav isn't deaf you know" i say, "i know, i'll be down soon" he says before i left.
"y/n" i heard him shout just as i walked down the hallway, i was gonna carry on like i didn't hear him but my feet were going against me and started slowly walking to his room.
i made it back to his room and he sat with his head hanging low, "hm" i hummed. he didn't look up instead he kept his gaze on the ground, "i want to give US a go again" he finally looked up at me, our eyes locked and i was speechless really.
after a few moments of silence i let out a sigh, "i knew coming here was a bad idea, i think we should leave now" i spoke. i know that's completely ignoring his question and honestly i don't know how to answer it. my heart wants to give him a chance but i can't be so selfish, i have a daughter now and me and mattia are toxic together. i know it and he knows it, won't be long and sav will start picking up on it.
he stood and towered over me, his hand hovering just over my cheek, so close that i could feel the heat radiate off his hand alone. "please amore, you know how bad i need you. you've seen how crazy i can get without you" he speaks in a low voice. 2 years ago i would have ran back into his arms but that isn't gonna do any good, "stop mattia, we've never worked what makes you think we are going to work this time round" i push his chest but he didn't budge one bit.
"just let me show you amore" he finally let his hand touch my cheek and i couldn't help but lean into him. i pulled my shit together and pulled away, "i can't" i dropped my head in shame and slowly departed from his room.
i wasted no time packing mine and savs things and getting the hell out here before i make a stupid decision. i filled bags and sav was awake asking 101 questions, i was to frustrated to answer them so i ignored her. i felt bad but i know if i open my mouth i'll just hurt her feelings.
"daddy" sav screeched and darted towards the door, i let out a sigh and slowly turnt to face him. he already had her in his arms and placed a kiss on her forehead saying calming words to calm her from her boost of energy, mind you she hasn't seen him in a while. he looked at me with a puzzled look, "maria" he shouted still not looking away from me.
not even a minute later a maid i was familiar with came running in, "yes don" she says out of breath, "take savanna to play with in the back please" he finally looks away from me and to sav. he whispered something to her and sav flew to maria and the left.
mattia stood at the door leaning against the doorframe, "and where are you going" he questions. i ignored him then turnt and carried on packing our things, i heard him walking towards me.
soon a bag was ripped off the bed and thrown onto the floor ruining all my hard work at folding the clothes. i glared at mattia and he had a scowl plastered on his face. "i asked you a fucking question, don't turn your back on me amore" he huffed.
"matteo is in jersey for a bit so me and sav are gonna stay with him till you sort out your shit" i shrugged completely lying through my teeth, seeing as matteo has no idea where we are. but i know if i told him he'll fly here in a heartbeat because he's a lovesick puppy.
mattias jaw ticked at the mention of his name and a part of me liked he still got jealous of other males, "so what, you go and fuck some other dude infront of MY daughter is that it. i knew i should of put a bullet in his head the first time his name was mentioned" mattia rambled on. "i wouldn't fuck him infront of sav silly, i'll put her to bed in the furthest room from ours and play a movie just in case i'm a bit too loud when matteo pounds into me" i smirk completely fucking him.
i literally was gonna shit my pants when mattia eyes turned 10 shades darker and his fist curled at his sides, i looked down at my wrist to my imaginary watch "looks like i should dip" i say and try walk out the room before i piss the beast off even more.
my wrist was gripped not even making it far, i let out a squeal as mattia pulled me into his hard chest. "if he ever touches what's MINE i'll make you sit and watch me torture your little friend and by the time i'm done with him i'll make YOU put the bullet in his head. and that goes for anyone that dares touch what belongs to me" he smiles wickedly. i'm sure he felt my heart slam against my chest, i did find it amusing how he claims to own me after these years. he released me and i held my wrist in my other hand, "well i wouldn't wanna get my fuck buddy a beating now would i" i smiled up at him and his eyes only narrowed at me.
i think it's best i shut my mouth, but no way in hell would i do anything with matteo just love the reactions i get from mattia to be quite honest.
"your not going anywhere amore, if you don't want me i'll make you want me once i'm finished with you" he smirked and exited my room.
a/n: ok i keep forgetting to update bc i found a book that's interesting asf lol ok bye now
