a whole two month went by and still nothing, i kept running into people that hated mine and mattias guts so jason had to come save me every now and then. but the only difference is he doesn't kill them, he lets them go with a "warning". but that's before kayden finds out and he kills them, jason's too soft thats all. oh and jason is teaching me how to fight and how to use guns and all that, super fun. maddie will take me out to the woods, i know super sketch but it was only to fire guns and she'd teach me some different moves to use to defend myself.
jason and i are pretty close now, he's been good to me well everyone has been but he has been doing a lot for me lately.
it's been five months now we are starting to lose hope in finding mattia, everyone's starting to think mattia is dead but i don't believe that we'll find him i know we will.
i've cried myself to sleep some nights. now that kayden is living with us again it's full on, him and kairi have their moments and sometimes they'll just chill when i'm around. the boys will come around and check on me and than chill in kairis room, i don't really leave my room only to go train with the twins than come back and go to bed. if i had a choice i wouldn't even go to trainings but jason said it'll be better if i can defend myself just in case he ain't around to save my ass no more.
my phone buzzed and i checked hoping it was mattia, but nope just jason. "come over" he says and then ends the call. i furrowed my eyebrows and called out to the boys, they came in confused "were going to mattias" i say and they nod.
"what do you mean he's dead" i shout, "i mean we think we found his body in a dumpster near the warehouse kayden and him were at" jason says, i look at kayden and shake my head "why did you leave him alone, you could have helped him but you ran away" i cried, kayden just looks at the ground and i ran out the house with tears streaming down my face. i ran and ran away from the voices behind me, i didn't even look where i was going when i crossed the road, at this point i didn't even care if i got hit.
i stopped at a bridge to catch my breath, i looked off the side and i was so ready to jump. but than i thought about kairi and my parents, fuck kayden at this point. kairi couldn't even handle when i went missing i can't do that to him, i sat there and cried my little heart out, than i heard a car pull up and i didn't even bother to look up. "y/n" a deep voice said, "what do you want jason" i mumbled, "everyone's looking for you come on it's getting late" he says. "no" i shout.
i felt him sit next to me, i look over to him and he just stared at me "things will get better y/n, i promise" he says thinking that'll make me better. he sat there and we both froze our asses off because i'm a stubborn little bitch, he kept talking to me and comforting me. i lifted my head and smashed my lips into his just to shut him up, he pulled away "we can't" he says, "yes we can" i say before smashing my lips into his again only this time he kissed back.we stood up trying not to break the kiss, and we made our way to his car, the kiss got passionate real quick. i opened the door to the back of his car and i got in and laid back, he hovered over me before kissing me again, before i knew it my clothes were off and so were his. the rest is self explanatory.
i got dressed and we left back to mattias where everyone was waiting. "no one has to know about this" i say while i'm fixing myself in the mirror, "yeah yeah" he says before getting out. i followed behind him and we went inside, kairi rushes over to me and hugged me "i'm sorry" i say, "it's okay just promise not to leave me ever again" he says and the boys nodding as they joined the hug. "aw that's cute" maddie says and everyone pulls away and glares at her, kayden was in the corner of the room ignoring everyone. i walked over to him and wrapped my arm around his shoulder "i'm sorry kayden" , he ignores me "it's not your fault, and i'm sorry for blaming you" i say, "your right though, i could have helped him but i was a little pussy and ran" he says, "and if you didn't you wouldn't be here right now, and i'm happy you are" i say making him smile.
we were leaving so maddie left upstairs and kayden and the boys went to the car. jason stopped me, "goodnight, see you around" he says with a smirk, omygod. "goodnight" i say before running out to the car, i still love mattia don't get me wrong but jason is just a distraction.
after dropping the boys off me kayden and kairi went home, yay cry myself to sleep again.
