"talk to me please" i say, mattias been ignoring me ever since we got back, after several attempts at getting him to talk to me he continued to give me silent treatment. "if you don't wanna talk to me imma leave" i say and he scoffs, "and if i talk you just gonna leave anyway" he says, i mean yeah maybe. "what's wrong" i say, "what's wrong?" he laughs and i nod. "the two of you been flirting all day, and then he's naked in bed and you just standing there looking at him"he says, "it was nothing, i was just looking for roshaun" i say, "all you've been doing is proving you don't need me, if you want to leave bro then fucking leave i ain't stopping you. because fuck i'm sick of this shit, it's like i'm the only one trying in this relationship"he says, "well what the fuck do you want from me mattia, tell me and i'll do it. i'll stay away from him if that's what you want, i'll do whatever the fuck you want but don't ever say your the only one trying in this fucked up relationship" i say on the verge of tears. he stormed out probably gone to the boys to calm him down, i sat on the floor and cried. he puts way too much on me, sometimes i can't handle it.
i calmed down and went to apologise to mattia, he was in kairis room with all the boys chatting. i stood at the door listening, "so the proposal on hold AGAIN" i hear alvaro say, what fucking proposal. "yeah well i don't know anymore, y/ns moving different" i hear mattia say, was he gonna propose to me?,i stood there shocked. i felt like crying again when i heard him say he was gonna propose the day i was meant to be back before 9, but journey and them ruined it.
i pushed the door open and their eyes widened at me, "i'm sorry" i cry and everyone looked at me sympatheticly, "you heard allat huh" roshaun says and i nod. "nice to know" mattia says and pushes past me, i followed him crying like a sook trying to get him to look at me but he didn't.
i laughed realising i look like a fucking idiot, mattia looked at me weird as i laughed "your crazy" he says i shrug and walk to the kitchen, if he thinks he's gonna get anywhere making me beg like a little bitch he's wrong. don't get me wrong i love him with all my heart but i know he can't stay mad at me for long, nor will he stay away from me for long. two can play this game.
i made me food and sat on the couch, i could feel mattia staring at me but lowkey i was just thinking about how he wanted to marry me, like damn i'm so excited even though it's on hold i know it's coming. i can't express how i feel right now because i'm supposed to be mad, i looked down and realised i had ate all the food while i was busy thinking. mattia handed me more food but i pushed it away and glared at him, "i'm supposed to be mad at YOU" he frowns, i shrug and walk away from him. "why the fuck are you mad, you were literally crying to me 5minutes ago" he says, "exactly you made me cry" i say, "oh my god your so fucking difficult, why the fuck are you so difficult" he says harshly and puts me up against the wall, "your stressing me the fuck out and i just can't with you no more" he says tightening his grip, "let go dumbass" i struggle to say and he glared at me before letting go. "fuck off away from me" he says, "you fuck off you came over here" i say and he clenched his jaw, "don't y/n" he says, "fuck you" i say and walk away. i made it half way out the lounge and he snatched my arm back, "watch your fucking mouth with me" he says, "or fucking what" i spat, he dragged me into one of the guest rooms downstairs and pushed me onto the bed. "you won't, your boys are here" i laugh and he locks the door "you wanna be loud, go ahead be loud" he says and removes his sweatpants, and ripping my shorts off.
he pounded into me and i put the pillow over my face to muffle my moans, "let them hear you slut" he says and rips the pillow of my face. i let out loud moans as mattia went harder and deeper not letting me slip away, he pulled out before i came motherfuck. "fuck you" i say and he sighs "man i don't know with you" he laughs and wipes the sweat off his forehead. "so when we getting married" i say and he shrugs "never" he smiles and walks out, "ugly motherfuck" i say loud enough for him to hear, he stormed back in the room with his eyebrows raised "you still love this ugly motherfuck so don't even"he says making me laugh, "yeah yeah" i roll my eyes.
a/n: if i made another book can someone read it i'll love you forever, lowkey wanna end this one it's boring me tbh
