"wait really" he says, "sike i want some food" i say, he put his head down and i rolled my eyes. "did you really think i wanted to be with you" i ask mattia, and he shook his head, "but i do" i say trying to mess with him. i do miss mattia but it's just complicated. "man stop playing with me" he frowns, i grab his arm but he pushes me off him, "just leave me alone" he says and turns his back to me. i hugged him from behind and tried to hold him, "chill i'm sorry" i say, he stopped fighting to get away and just stood there. i rocked him side to side "your such a littlesook" i say and he scoffs, "you wanna talk about it" i ask, "nah not really" he says, "come on bab-" i face palmed myself oh my god. "finish your sentence" he says, "nah i'm good, but hey if you ain't wanna come in you can go" i say walking towards my door.
i opened my door and walked inside, i tried to shut the door but i'm guessing his foot was in it. i opened it "wait bruh" mattia says making me laugh. i quickly quieted down because everyone was probably asleep, we went up to my room and i could still hear the boys awake. "y/n" kairi calls out, i push mattia into my room and tell him to wait there, i'm not in the mood to come up with an excuse as to why he's here with me.
i went into kairis room and the twins weren't here, "where's jason and maddie" i ask, "oh they moved back into mattias" alvaro says, "speaking of mattia, have you seen him" alejandro asks and "nah" i shake my head. "where were you" kayden asks, "i made some new friends at the park" i shrug "sure" roshaun says side eyeing me. i flipped him off.
i sat in the room with them for 30 minutes just making tiktoks, than i remembered mattia, "alright imma head out now see y'all in the morning" i say, "goodnight y/n" i hear them all say as i leave.
i walked into my room which was really dark, "mattia" i whispered, "yeah" he says i look over to the bed and he was just laying there. "sorry i got distracted" i laugh, "mhm" he hums, "what's up with you" i ask getting annoyed. "why didn't you just say you were with me instead of lying and why am i hiding" mattia says, "man idont even know" i shrug, "but you do know so tell me" mattia says as he gets off the bed. great. "because i feel like a slut leading jason on just for him to break up with me so i'd go back with you plus the boys won't hop off my ass if i say i was with you" i shrug, "but you ain't a slut" mattia says, "yeah well that's how others see it" i shrug. mattia smashed his lips into mine and i quickly pulled away, "i can't" i say, "why not" he says, "i just need time that's all" i say, "you had three years y/n three" he says raising his voice, i placed my hand over his mouth hoping the boys didn't hear him, "shut up" i whisper yell. he moves my hands, "why don't you wanna be with me" he says as his voice cracks, "i do, i just don't know how to" i say.
we sort of just stood there awkwardly , "how about we stay friends for now till your ready, but we can't do things that we wouldn't do if we were in a relationship" he says, "and what's that"i ask, "no flirting, no kissing other people, and no sex...with other guys or girls" he says,i laughed "so we are pretty much together but not" i say, "pretty much" he says. "k whatever i'm tired, your already giving me a headache" i groan as i walk over to my bed. "your the one giving me a headache, you've been leading me on all day" mattia says, i throw a pillow at him "shut yo ass up" i say.
i was slowly falling asleep and i heard mattia say he was gonna leave, "just sleep on the couch" i groan and he laughs, "nah i'll just sleep here" he says jumping into my covers. i didn't bother to kick him out instead i just went to sleep.
i woke up in the middle of the night because i needed to piss, i looked to my side and mattia was fast asleep, his arms were wrapped around my waist and i slowly removed them. i went to use the bathroom and came out, mattia squinted at his eyes at his phone "it's 3am" he groans, "sorry if i woke you" i say. i locked the door because the boys get up early and will barge in here, "what you trying to do" he says, i can just hear the smirk appearing in his face, "sleep now shut up" i say as i squeeze in bed. "your a bully you know that" he says, "didn't i just say shut up" i say and he laughs. i faced away from him and scooted across so there was enough space between us to fit a bus. "come here i won't bite" mattia says as he drags me back by my waist, "ugh,let me go" i say trying to squirm out, "no" he groans and holds me tighter.
after trying to get out for the longest, i gave up and went to sleep. "finally you stubborn thing" i hear him say.
