Sav is 6months old today, kairi tried to stay longer but mattia was getting suspicious and wanted him back. mind you kairi was here for like a month or two. it's okay though amelia helped me out a lot and we were going out for dinner tonight.
i bathed Sav and changed her into a cool little one piece amelia got for her, i took a photo to add to her little memory photo album thing, then we left.
we pulled up to a nice restaurant and i grabbed Sav from the back and we walked towards the restaurant, i struggled to open the damn door so a nice dude held it for me. i went straight to amelia and settled in, "you don't mind if my brother joins" she says and i nod not really caring. a seat was pulled and i'm guessing it was her brother, i wiped baby's mouth and faced him. "hi" he smiles, it's was the dude that held the door for me. "oh hi" i say. he looked a lot like amelia, green eyes, caramel skin and curls that bounced every movement he made, i didn't realise all of this at the door because i was in a rush. "y'all twins" i frown and they nod, "oh my god, the amount of twins i've met is unbelievable" i shake my head, her brother just looked at me with amusement. "what's your name" i ask him, "Matteo" he says, "oh great" i laugh. matteo and mattia are pretty much the same. "what's wrong with my name" he frowns, "nun i like it it's cool" i lie and he nods before asking for mine.
we talked and made jokes for the rest of the night, that was until Sav started crying. i let out a sigh and picked her up and rocked her back and forth for what felt like forever. she cried the whole restaurant down and i felt a slight bit embarrassed, "come on sav" i say to her but she only cried harder. i had already changed her nappy, i gave her her bottle i don't know what was wrong with her. matteo rolled his sleeves of his expensive looking suit up and put his arms out for her and i shook my head, i ain't letting no stranger hold her i don't care if they are cute specimens. "it's okay y/n, he's good with kids" amelia says noticing i have trust issues with people and my kid, i sigh and hand her to him hesitantly. as soon as she rested in his arms he whispered calming words to her and she slowly fell asleep, i frowned maybe she just needs her father and i'm stopping her from that. matteo sat with her still in his arms, i settled in my seat keeping a close eye on her. "i'm heading back to new york tonight sis so i'll see you next time im in town" he says, great he's even from new york. "your always doing this matteo, all the damn time. you never actually make time for me and julie" she lets out, i'm guessing he's a busy man, julies her kid by the way. "i know and i'm sorry, next time i promise i will" he says. he spoke calmly trying not to wake Sav, i'm only now just realising the veins along his arms that looked like they wanted to pop. amelia looked like she wanted to cry and he only just gave her a sympathetic look, he stood and handed me baby. his soft skin brushing against mine left goosebumps, what's wrong with me. he walked over to hugged her and she finally gave in and cried, they must be really close just like me and kairi.
me and baby left home and the twins did the same leaving to amelias.
i struggled as always to get inside the apartment, but i managed. i really do need to find a place because i can't bring her up in this shit. but it's hard i don't have much money, i don't work and i've been spending the money kairi has been sending me. i feel bad for doing so but i put all of my money into a shared account with mattia, and i ain't asking him for it. that money was meant for this kid anyway, i told him that i would start saving for her and him being him says "y/n i have plenty of money you don't have to worry about that". i get he's rich and all but i always liked being independent, but not enough obviously because my dumbass put it in HIS account. so here i am with nothing but whatever my brother sends me, which is more than enough, not like he'll miss it he makes a lot of money from social media and mattia throws him money every now and then because they are "best bro's".
i'm gonna get my shit together for Sav and for myself.
a/n: ideas bc i'm running out 😐
