currently blasting pop smoke while kairi and my parents were having dinner, i wasn't hungry, well i was i just haven't gotten a chance to talk to kairi since the incident last week. mattia hasn't rung me back yet and i was getting worried but i know he's probably busy or whatever. but then it has been a whole week surely one phone call wouldn't hurt, ok maybe i'm just being paranoid.
knock knock, "what" i shout, "can i come in" it was kairi and i didn't wanna be rude so i let him in. he jumped into my bed and he had food , "here" he says handing me the food, i take it and sit next to him. "what's up" i say, "i uh wanna apologise, so i'm sorry i don't know what for but yeah" he says i just laugh at him.
"well i guess there goes my chance at getting to know my other brother " i say making him feel guilty, "we can give it another try, i'll be nice" he shrugs, "yayyy" i say pulling him into a hug. kairi got up to leave, "you know your my favourite brother so don't even trip" i reassure him, he smiles and nods before leaving.
i was getting annoyed because mattia hadn't called me yet, i hovered my finger over his contact name before saying fuck it. i rang his number and let it ring, but he ain't answer, i rang jason and he ain't answer either i was getting worried so i rang the one other person i didn't feel like ringing but had to, kayden.
he answered with a slow "hey", straight away i knew something was wrong. "where's mattia" i ask, "hes um" he didn't finish but i could hear whispering in the background sounded like jason. "jason where the fuck is mattia" i say knowing he can hear me, "um we sort of don't know" jason says, "the fuck you mean you don't know" i shout, "we'll explain when we get home sis got to go" kayden says before hanging up.
i stared getting irritated because i didn't know what to do but wait. well the boys are coming over today so i guess they can distract me with their stupid selfs.
i heard a knock downstairs and i ran down hoping it was the boys, and yeah sure enough it was. "yay i missed you guys" i squealed, "aw she has feelings" alejandro says, i punched his arm, "i missed you too, and alvaro keeps being a dick" roshaun says making me glare at alvaro, "what he was picking on my height and saying i'm a flop" alvaro frowned, i had to laugh. we went upstairs to kairis room and then we made tiktoks and than they went on the game leaving me to be bored. but i like listening to them when they play because all the tea and gossip these boys talk about and know is amazing, call me nosey or whatever. i get all the tea about all the big tiktokers it's funny watching all their fans guess.
another week went by and still no word from mattia, even jason and kayden we're ignoring my calls. i cried nearly every night hoping he'd be back soon, the boys didn't know though except roshaun, he can see right through me. roshaun got me food and would sit with me some nights but i still couldn't forget about mattia where ever he was.
than finally jason had called, he told me to go to mattias and that we had to talk, i didn't know if i was to be excited or scared but i rushed to mattias in a heartbeat.
i pulled up with roshaun and we went in, i called out to mattia hoping he was in his room or the basement but no response, "stop yelling he ain't here" kayden says giving me a fright, "what then where is he" i say confused, "he's been missing since that day you called" jason says, my heart dropped and i broke down crying. "so why isn't anyone looking for him" i cried, "we have been for the past two weeks, we had nearly the whole of the gangs looking for him but nothing" jason says, "why do i feel like y'all leaving something out" i say, "well uh me and mattia went into some old torn down warehouse, and it was a set up guys were everywhere. he told me to run while he held them off" kayden says, i cried harder and roshaun held me next to him. "so we don't know if he's still alive, but if he is well find him i promise y/n" jason says pulling me away from roshaun and into a hug.
after a while i left, i can't be in his house anymore it just hurts. roshaun and kayden took me home but first we dropped off roshaun, than kayden took me home. before i got out the car kayden stopped me, "y/n one more thing", i looked at him with no emotion, "he said he loves you and he's sorry" kayden says before pulling out. i just broke down in the driveway, it started to rain and i just laid there, i've never felt this way before and i didn't know what to do.
"y/n" i look back and kairi was standing on the porch, "what's wrong" he shouts over the rain, i ignored him and zoned out completely frozen.
a/n: this acc is so dead omg
