dinner was finished and it was just hella awkward with my parents bringing up the past. but it made me realise that i do want mattia, and i know me being stubborn is just fucking it up for us even more and no point in delaying the inevitable.
the two boys left because they didn't wanna clean. mattia stayed with me probably so i don't go back to that other dude.
we got in the car "i'm ready" i laugh, "to be my girlfriend" he asks and i nod, "finally" he says, i laugh at him.
"you can go home if you want" i say to mattia as he paces around my room, his father had called and said there was some meeting. "no i wanna stay but i ain't sleeping in that bed" he says with a disgusted look.
i changed the sheets and covers and he finally got in, "i'll go home tomorrow" he says. mattia kissed me and i kissed back this time, it got heated real quick but i pulled away which is surprising and he pouted "goodnight polibio" i say and he shuffled away from me. "sook" i mumble, "i heard that" he says and quickly faces me, "ok and" i with the most sass and shuffle away from him, then this guy really got on top of me, "you know i hate it when you give me attitude" he says, "i don't care what you hate and what you don't" i spat, i instantly regretted it when he grabbed my throat. sometimes i forget how mattia has a short temper. i was gasping for air in a good way you know, "jason hasn't been keeping you in check has he" mattia says, "your wrong if you think you can get away with that shit with me"he says, "k" i say seeing how far his anger can go, "i'll fix you right up just wait" he says before getting off me and laying down.
"goodnight" i say and he doesn't reply instead he ignores me, i sigh and go to sleep.
i felt around my bed and it was empty, the sun was up and mattia was gone. i went downstairs and the boys were eating pancakes, "sup" i say and they wave. "where did mattia go" i ask, "he went home and he said he'll be back later" roshaun says, "when are y'all going back to florida" i ask, "damn you kicking us out" alvaro says acting hurt, "no of course not just gonna miss y'all when you leave" i pout, "yeah well we were actually leaving tomorrow" roshaun says everyone looked at him in shock, "man what" kairi says, "y'all coming back though right" alejandro says and they nodded.
we just chilled and made tiktoks for the fans, than alejandro decided that we should go to his place. i declined and everyone happily went leaving me by myself. they left and i sat on the couch and watched movies by my lonesome.
mattia barged in giving me a heart attack, he apologised and sat next to me. "how's the attitude today" he says, "idont know" i say and he rolls his eyes. "your just so damn stubborn what did jason turn you into" mattia says, "someone who don't take shit from no one not even you polibio, so if you don't like it leave" i say, "man shut the fuck up" he says and so i did.
"so um are you gonna tell me why you left all those years ago" i say and mattia looks at me, "nah not really" he says, i begged and begged but he never gave in. "i'm scared" he says and i look at him confused, he's mattia what could possibly be so scary to him. i placed my hand on his leg, "you can tell me" i say, "can i though" he says, "of course you can" i frown.
"i was kidnapped"he says, a tear slid down his cheek. i pulled him into my chest and held him as he sobbed.
he calmed down and continued, "they beat me, starved me, even r@ped me" he says making me feel so terrible, "they even handed me a rope so i'd kill myself, and y/n i was so close to doing so. but than the thought of you kept me going, you pulled me through it all even though you weren't physically there. some girl helped me escape, she didn't make it though they killed her. i came straight back to new jersey only to find you fucked jason. my heart broke and i went on a rampage trying so hard to forget about you but i just couldn't" he says, i was on the verge of crying as i listened to what he went through, "i visited you a lot, you seemed so happy and i really didn't want to ruin that with my return but i had to come back and reclaim my spot as don. the people who had taken me were looking for me, and i couldn't protect myself and being don now i have protection" he says, "i'm so sorry mattia, i really am" i cry, he sits up, "hey it's not your fault" he says, "they're dead anyways" he says and i roll my eyes making him giggle. of course their dead.
mattia explained more about his years before he had came back and everything started to make sense, how he broke in and snooped around my room weirdo.
we went up to my room and cuddled, i was getting sweaty and sticky so i took a shower. while i was showering the curtain opened, mattia stood there naked, he got in and i looked at all the scars and tattoos on his body. i ran my fingers along his scars and looked at him sympatheticly, "i'm sorry this happened to you" i say and i rest my head on his chest whilst the water hit my back. "i missed you so much y/n, it drove me crazy when i saw you and couldn't touch you or be with you" he says, "well i'm not going anywhere, i love you" i say, "i love you too" he says.
a/n: cringe lol
