mattia:
kairi walked in after i kicked him and y/n out, i know i overreacted by doing that. kairi said she left for a break from me, that hurt that she felt she needed a break away from me, the one who is suppose to love and protect her. i know i should have listened to her instead of assuming the worst, which i always do. it's just been stressful and time consuming doing all this mafia things, everytime i finish i expect so much from y/n, especially sex. so when she started pushing me away my mind was so clouded to realise i was the one pushing her away.
a few months passed and y/n still hadn't came back, i questioned kairi about it and apparently she took off with some dude and he didn't wanna say anything because he didn't want me to get pissed. and that's exactly what i did, i lost my shit and tried to find the guy who dared to steal her from me. i wanted to kill him and wanted to kill anyone at that, i have never been this mad before and i haven't gone on a killing spree in soooooo long. so that's what i did.
i spent four months looking for her but it was like she completely vanished, or that kairi has been keeping in touch with her and telling her what i've been doing. so i told him i stopped when really i didn't. i can't wait till i find whoever took her from me, i wanna put a whole clip in his head and make her sit and watch.
kairi left to some girls place for like a few months, i soon realised he wasn't at just some girls house and that it was y/n.but i had no idea where he was, he didn't tell me and i didn't send anyone to follow him, so i waited till he got back.
i asked him for the longest and he wouldn't give in, she's hiding something from me because he was so adamant in not telling me anything. "mattia your acting like you haven't been entertaining other girls these past months, you don't need her" kairi spat at me, "ain't she the one who took off with another dude" i laugh, "she didn't mattia she fucking didn't, i only said that so she had a chance at living a life with out you in it" he says before storming upstairs. leaving me to think, so she doesn't have another guy in her life and i was stupid enough to believe she did. now i was more adamant in finding her, because she's alone and i've left her at that long enough.
2years have gone by and still no sign of y/n, i sort of gave up and let her do her. i know it's too late for me having different girls over all the time. i've never seen this much females before, although they ain't the same as y/n and never will be but they'll have to do. i've been slacking in work lately and kairi still ignores me every now and then, alejandro and all them still look for y/n and don't get me started with kayden. that fuck is always on my ass about y/n, i felt bad that her absence affected them all. tomorrow i'll get back into work and at the same time try figure out where y/n is and bring her home. i have to admit i do miss her, and i need her because i feel so lonely and lost, but i know i'm just gonna break my own heart. she's probably moved on by now, found a guy that's good for her blah blah blah. i'll still kill him i don't care.
a/n: just a short chapter of mattias pov till tmr❤️
