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(attack on titans) levi x reader (fluff) dont blame yourself

Flashback~~

"NOOOO B/F/N NO NO NO YOU FUCKEN BITCH I WILL KILL YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"b/f/s please please stay with me please no i can't lose you now please your like a sister to me please"

"Y/N LETS GO SHE'S DEAD LETS GO THERE'S NO TIME TO CRY NOW WE NEED TO GO!"

"NO SHE'S NOT DEAD" i felt someone grab me a pull me away from her body i kicked and cried trying to go back in to her arms she was all i had she was my only friend

Flashback over~~

Ha that was like 10 years ago why does it still hurt im one of the second hands Survey Corps i work under erwin but i always get bullshit form sexist people saying i cant do my job right

I was currently sitting at the cemetery sitting at my best friends grave it's funny really i should be the one in the grave not her

"b/f/n why did you push me away it should be me there not you , you had so much to work for in life you always told me you wanted to explore the world and now you can cause of me"

"Stop blaming yourself will ya someone of your rank should be sulking on the past" i guess i was to in my thoughts that i didn't notice levi walking up to me

"Whatever cadet"

"Stop calling me that brat"

"Nahh it fun i mean i was your captain before you got the job you have now so~~ i can do what i want"

"God your annoying" levi looked in deep though for a hot minute

"Hey! Anyway what are you doing here........cadet"

"God i hate that name more than shortie"

I could help but laugh i will definitely be telling hange this later "i was looking for you cause you weren't in your office doing paperwork then i realise e the date and remember you go here"

"Why were you looking for me huh?"

"Can we talk about this somewhere more i don't know private"

"Sure let's go to my office"i stood up and dusted my legs off from sitting of the ground and walked to my office

Once we got to my office i sat down on my chair while levi closed the door and sat down

"So what is it. If it about the next mission i can't tell you yet for classified reasons"

"No not that"

"Oh? Then what could you want from me?"

"Do you know anything about *sigh* love?"

"Love?! Oh umm a little but not a lot b/f/n used to tell me about how she really liked this one person but i don't remember ever really been in love myself why you like someone~~~" well that's a lie well i have been in love i still am and its with levi and thinking about him with someone else hurts

"Well yeah kinda of"

"Your been strange levi your not being your old stoic self its kinda scaring me not gonna lie"

"Ughh im gonna be straightforward with you i like you and i don't like the way you say you should be dead every time we're gonna a mission i think about your safety and if you ok and every time i see you smiling and laughing with a guy it hurts please i like you"

I was shocked and speechless but you know the saying actions speak louder than words so i got up and kisses him he was shocked at first it was nice a sweet it was like he didn't want to hurt me when we separated he hugged me

"Please don't ever and i mean ever think that it was your fault she died i might not have known her for a long time but i know if she was here she wouldn't blame you and if you weren't here i wouldn't be able to kiss you she knew what she did come on let's go get you some sleep now ok i can see those bags under your eyes come on now"