Finding Love

Me time

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I opened my eyes and looked around and saw Lea was gone. I got up and went in the kitchen and saw she left a note saying she went to see Cory and not to come because she just wanted to be alone today. I grabbed my jacket and put it over my shoulders and called a taxi. 10 minutes later it pulled up and I went outside and got in and drove to my apartment. When I pulled up I quickly paid the guy and then went inside. I fed Marilyn and then went in my room. I showered and then blow dried my hair. I threw on my robe and then grabbed my song writing book and sat on my balcony. I quickly took a picture of my legs, book, and balcony. I posted it on Instagram and captioned:
Some ME time...
I then turned off my phone and sat there until song ideas came to me...

Hey! Hey!
Wee-e-e-e-e-e, we had plans tonight,
But you-u-u-u-u-u cancelled on me for the third time
I'm stuck, thinking about you
I don't... don't know what to do
Look what... you're putting me through,
You're putting me through

Then I see your car driving by my street
Who's that girl in your passenger seat?
Yeah, yeah yeah!

Tell me why can't you see,
baby we're meant to be
Got your music up so loud, boy that you can't hear me

Now I'm walking down the street like it's a runway,
I'm on a mission like double 0 7
Can't you see, you're with the wrong girl baby? Baby!

That girl should be me

Woah-h-h-h-h-h
I gotta make you see
Woah-h-h-h-h-h

That girl should be me

I-I-I-I-I-I, Guess I'll just stop thinking about you
Woah, oh wait, that's impossible
I'm stuck, wishing I'm with you
I don't, don't know what to do
Say what, say what you want to
Say what you want to

Since I saw your, car driving by my street
Who's that girl in your passenger seat? Yeah!

Tell me why can't you see, baby we're meant to be
Got your music up so loud, boy that you can't hear me

Now I'm walking down the street like it's a runway,
I'm on a mission like double 0 7
Can't you see, you're with the wrong girl baby? Baby!

That girl should be me

Woah-h-h-h-h-h
I gotta make you see
Woah-h-h-h-h-h

That girl should be me
I gotta make you see
I'm gonna make you see

Yeah, tell me why can't you see?
Got your music up so loud (so loud)
That you can't hear me!

Woah-h-h-h-h-h, I gotta make you see
Woah-h-h-h-h-h, That girl should be me!

Now I'm walking down the street like it's a runway,
I'm on a mission like double 0 7
Can't you see, you're with the wrong girl baby? Baby!

That girl should be me

Woah-h-h-h-h-h, I gotta make you see
Woah-h-h-h-h-h, That girl should be me
Woah-h-h-h-h-h, That girl should be me
Woah-h-h-h-h-h, That girl should be me

The song was more upbeat then it was intended to be but I liked it that way. I then decided to call the song That Girl Should Be Me. I then grabbed my phone and saw it was 2:30. I texted Lee and said:
Would you want to come over to help me change up my style?
She immediately responded saying:
Yes! What type?
I responded saying:
More edgy and modern.
She said:
Okay:) be over around 5 and the British Fashion Awards tomorrow so you can help me choose your outfit!!!
I responded saying:
Okay!!!!!
I then decided to try and right a new song. After around a half an hour of trying to start songs I finally started writing a song:

If you want it, take it
I should've said it before
Tried to hide it, fake it
I can't pretend anymore

I only wanna die alive
Never by the hands of a broken heart
Don't wanna hear you lie tonight
Now that I've become who I really are

[x2:]
This is the part when I say I don't want ya
I'm stronger than I've been before
This is the part when I break free
'Cause I can't resist it no more

You were better, deeper
I was under your spell
Like a deadly fever, yeah, babe
On the highway to hell, yeah

I only wanna die alive
Never by the hands of a broken heart
Don't wanna hear you lie tonight
Now that I've become who I really are

[x2:]
This is the part when I say I don't want ya
I'm stronger than I've been before
This is the part when I break free
'Cause I can't resist it no more

No more, baby, ooh

Thought on your body
I came alive
It was lethal
It was fatal
In my dreams it felt so right
But I woke up every time

Oh, baby

[x2:]
This is the part when I say I don't want ya
I'm stronger than I've been before
This is the part when I break free
'Cause I can't resist it no more

I finished and it was 4. I made myself some lunch and ate it and watched some tv. I then went in my room and threw on a loose flawy white tank top dress with two flower lines going down the front and then a flower bar going across the top. I curled my hair a little so it's wavy. I heard my door bell ring and I ran downstairs and answered the door. I saw Lee with a bunch of boxes and bags. I let her in and then grabbed some and she put them on the couch. She said, "Okay first let's choose the British Fashion Awards outfit!" I nodded and she said, "Okay I brought two choices!" She showed me a white strapless long pants romper with two black strips going down the sides. I said, "I like it!" She said, "Okay do you want to try it on?" I nodded and then I put it on and she said, "It fits really well want to see the next one!" I said, "Sure." She showed me a deep neck black dress with two small lace slits on the side with black lace and then from mid thigh down it was black lace ball gown. I tried it on and then she said, "I think I like this one better!" I nodded and said, "Ya I really like this one!" I then took it off and put back on my outfit I wore before and the Lee said, "Okay you can look through the new outfits and I'll rearrange your closet!" I said, "Okay let's go upstairs!" We then walked upstairs and she went into my closet and I looked through all the new outfits and I was obsessed with them! After an hour or so Lee was done and then she said, "Okay I'm done how do you like them!" I said, "I love them all!" She said, "Okay good I have to head out but I'll see you tomorrow around 5 to help you get ready!" I said, "Okay thanks!" I hugged her and then she left. I quickly are and then went in my room and fell asleep...

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