Finding Love

Putting it all out there

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I woke up and saw it was 11 o'clock and then I decided to get ready. I took a long shower and then blow dried my hair and curled it slightly so it was waved. I put on natural makeup and then I put on a comfy long sleeve brown sweater dress with green hints in it. I then put on black mini boots and I grabbed a side black cross purse and put all of my stuff in it. I saw I had 20 minutes so I went in my office and went through my emails and saw Oliver Rousing about the Balmain Dubai trip information. I responded saying that I can go and a bunch of other things. I then fed Marilyn and got in my Matte Black Range Rover and drove to the studio. I pulled up and got out and walked into the studio and immediately walked into studio A. I saw Blake and we said, "Scooter said that we should work on the last song and then in 3 hours go up stairs because the whole management will be there to decide the order of the album." I said, "Okay well I wrote the song." I handed it to him and he read it and said, "I think this is a very personal song and I feel like all the fans will appreciate it." I nodded and he said, "I'll set up some music tracks and you can just hang out." I nodded and sat down and scrolled through my twitter feed and 20 minutes or so later he played it for me and then said, "You ready to record it?" I said, "Yep!" I walked into the booth and we ran through the song.
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2 hours later we still didn't have the take. Blake sighed and said, "The voice and talent is there but I feel like the emotion isn't." I said, "I feel like if I go there emotionally I'm gonna start crying." He said, "Well can you tell me what you were thinking about when you wrote this song." I started crying and I said, "When I was on, I was on stage And I was thinking of I felt like I know, I know him though And I know his heart And I know what he wouldn't do to hurt me But I didn't realize that
Feeling so confident, feeling so great about myself And then it just be completely shattered By one thing, by something so stupid But then you make me feel crazy You make me feel like it's my fault I was in pain." I was crying at the end of that and Blake said, "Now let's take it from the top." I nodded and whipped my tears and started singing.
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An hour or so later we were finished the song and edited it. We then walked up to Scooters office and the whole management team was there. We say down and then Scooter said, "We have a bunch of songs written and we need to decide a line up." All of the people said ideas and songs were played and 2 hours later we decided on the line up:
1 Had Me At Hello
2 Out Of The Woods
3 Everything Has Changed
4 Starlight
5 The Story Of Us
6 Style
7 How You Get The Girl
8 This love
9 Break Free
10 I Knew You Were Trouble
11 That Girl Should Be Me
12 Fix A Heart
13 The Heart Wants What It Wants
14 Clean
They then started strategizing for the next hour! And basically I was falling asleep. Then Scooter said, "Okay so Brooke tomorrow meet us at the regular photo shoot place and we will take the album pictures!" I said, "Okay so can I go now?" They all nodded and I got in my car and then I got a call from Zayn. I picked up and said, "What's up?" He said, "Brooke you need to come over Perrie and I need to talk to you." I said, "Okay I'll be over in like 5 minutes." I drove to Zayn and Perrie's apartment. I pulled up and got out and went up to the door and knocked and they immediately answered. I hugged then and then we sat on the couch. I said, "So what's up?" Zayn said, "Don't act like you don't know what this is about." I sighed and Perrie said, "You need to go to a doctor and get the pregnancy test!" I said, "I just don't want the paparazzi to see me and Harry find out!" Zayn said, "We thought you'd say that so we brought a doctor here!" A doctor guy walked in from the kitchen and I said, "Are you fucking serious! What if he tells!" The doctor said, "I'm a Hollywood doctor so I always sign contracts and no information gets out." I signed and said, "Let's get this over with." He walked over to me and set up all of his stuff and then took blood and then he said, "I'll call you in an hour or so with the results." I nodded and said, "Thank you." He then got up left and Perrie and Zayn said, "Do you want to watch a movie?" I said, "Sure." They put in the Hunger Games and then we watched it but I couldn't pay attention. Towards the end I got a phone call and immediately picked up and they turned the movie off. I said, "Hello?" The person said, "This is Doctor Daniels is this Brooke Hyland?" I said, "Yes." He said, "I have the results of the pregnancy test." I said, "What is it?" He paused and said, "Negative." I said, "REALLY!" He said, "Yes you are not pregnant." I said, "Oh my god thank you!" He said, "No problem but we need you to come in tomorrow for some testing just to have the check up on your heart beat." I said, "Okay what time?" He said, "11 at the hospital." I said, "Okay I'll be there!" I hung up and I hugged then and then said, "IM NOT PREGNANT!" They all hugged me and I said, "Um I have to go tell my mom but thank you guys!" I then ran into my car and drove to my moms house and pulled up and ran in and my mom yelled, "Brooke!" I ran to the kitchen and I hugged her she said, "What's wrong honey!" I said, "I'm not pregnant!" She screamed and said, "THANK THE LORD!" My dad ran down and said, "What's wrong!" We laughed and then my mom said, "She's not pregnant!" We all cheered and after a few minutes she said, "Okay I have to pick Paige up from dance but I'll see you soon!" After she left my dad said, "How are you?" I sighed and said, "I'm sure you heard about the whole misunderstanding and all but he wants to be friends and I feel like it's my fault and all." He said, "I was actually talking about with Cory you know nothing changed." I said, "I-I just feel like if I visit him I'll break down even more and I just don't want to see him in pain and it hurts-it hurts to know that he may not be okay and I feel like if he dies I don't know what will happen to me." She said, "Brooke it will be okay." I said, "But mom when I was depressed and had my eating disorder the person who kept me okay and safe was Cory and all this one he looked out for me and made sure I didn't relapse and I feel like if he's gone I'll go back down that road and with no one by my side I'll be in that black hole." At this point there were tears streaming down my face. My dad said, "Well honey the wolf you feed is the wolf that wins." I said, "Dad you've been telling me that my whole life and it still makes no sense!" He said, "Now how about you visit Cory and see how he's doing because his mom said she has a surprise for you." I said, "Okay I guess." I hugged my dad goodbye and got in the car and drove to the hospital. I went in and told then my name and they said that I had to wait 10 minutes. I sat down and texted everyone I told I was pregnant that I wasn't and then they all basically said how relieved they were. The lady then told me I could go in so I walked to his room and stood outside the door for a good five minutes then I finally gathered up the courage and I knocked on the door. I heard his mom say, "Come in." I walked in and I started crying. Well happy tears. I saw Cory was awake and looked a lot healthier. I ran over and hugged him. I said, "I missed you." He hugged back and said, "I'm sorry I disappointed you." I said, "No you didn't you're my best friend." He said, "Well you did save my life so I guess I like you too." I said, "Shut up." His mom said, "I'm gonna head home but Brooke you can stay the night of you want." I nodded and said, "I think I will." She then left and Cory said, "So how's the whole pregnancy thing? Did you tell Harry yet?" I laughed and said, "Well you missed a lot!" He looked confused so I filled him in...
The story was a lot longer and way more complicated then I thought. Cory laughed at the end and said, "So you really got a fuck love tattoo?" I said, "Shut up!" He said, "Well now you have to show me." I handed him my arm and he pulled up my sleeve and laughed and I said, "I know it's so stupid!" Cory said, "This isn't real." I said, "What!" I looked and saw it had basically disappeared! Cory said, "Looks like the guy knew you'd regret it." I said, "That smart ass!" Cory laughed and I said, "So want to take a pic?" He nodded and we took a selfie and I was kissing his cheek. I went on Instagram and posted it captioned:
So glad my best friend is healthy again:)
Cory then said, "Well in tired!" I said, "Me too!" We both then drifted off to sleep...