Finding Love

Hospital Terrors

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I looked down and then I said, "I think I just had a miscarriage..." Bella said, "...Brooke." I said, "No I am okay I just...I need to change and then can you please take me to the hospital." Bella nodded and she said, "I will clean up while you change." I nodded and I began to walk away and Bella hugged me and said, "It is going to be okay Brooke." I hugged her back and when I pulled away I had tears running down my face. This is what I was afraid of. I then went upstairs and first I cleaned myself off and then I brushed my hair out and I wanted to stall so I curled my hair a little and brushed it out so it was messily curled. I fixed my makeup and then I put on a comfortable outfit. I put on a white short sleeve loose flowey loose dress that went to mid thigh. It had a yellow paisley design all over it. It also had pockets on both sides which made it feel even more comfortable. Then I put on a gold necklace and fore my shoes I put on white slip ons. I grabbed my purse and I put all of my stuff I would need in it. I then walked down stairs and Bella said, "Are you ready?" I nodded and she held my hand and we walked downstairs and went into the garage and began driving to the hospital. The whole car ride was silent. We pulled up to the hospital and Bella held me hand and we walked into the hospital and we went through a side door so no paparazzi were there and they did not see us go in. Which was good... We got in and went to the front desk and they immediately let us in a room and went to get my usual pregnancy doctor. The door opened and I expected to see the doctor but who I saw was my best friends... Selena, Taylor, Kendall, and Gigi. I started tearing up and then Bella hugged me and then they all came around and hugged me. After a few minutes the door opened again. The girls say beside me and Selena held one of my hands and Bella held the other. The doctor said, "I will do an ultrasound to confirm everything." I nodded and he did an ultrasound. After a few minutes there was still no sounds, which meant no heartbeat. I started tearing up and then the doctor said, "Brooke I am very sorry, but you had a miscarriage." I nodded and looked down and then the doctor said, "We can removed the fetus now if you would like." I nodded and he said, "Okay I will be back in a few minutes." He left and the girls all hugged me and I could tell that some of them were also crying too. How could I possibly tell Harry that I lost this child... How could I possibly tell anyone that I lost this child, it is all my fault! The doctor came back with all of his "gear" or whatever. He handed me the plastic/ paper hospital robe thing. He said, "You can put this on I will be back in a few minutes." I nodded and he left. I took off my dress and put of the robe and attempted to tie it, but I couldn't. Selena said, "I can help you." I nodded and she tied it and I said, "Thanks." I sat back down on the bed thing and then the doctor knocked on the door. Taylor said, "You can come in!" He came in and then locked the door. He sat down and he said, "Can you lift your legs up?" I lifted my legs and he said, "This may hurt a little..." I grabbed on to Selena's hand and Bella's hand. I am not going to lie the entire process was very painful. I tightly shut my eyes and I had a few tears falling down my cheeks. After about 20 minutes it was over. He said, "Okay we are all done, once again I am very sorry and Brooke I made an appointment for you to come in tomorrow for some more tests." I nodded and then he cleaned up and went to leave the room. I said, "Wait!" I sat up and he walked back in. I said, "Do you know if the baby was a girl or boy?" He nodded and said, "The baby was a girl." He gave me a sad smiled and I started tearing up. I said, "Thank you." He nodded and then closed the door. I felt tears falling down my cheeks and then I put back on my dress and then they all hugged me once again. I gave them a weak smile and them I whipped my eyes. Selena said, "Lets get you home." I nodded and she held my hand and we walked out of the hospital and went through the back door. We got into the car and Taylor said, "Brooke should we take you to Harrys?" I shook my head and said, "He's not home yet." Kendall said, "What about your moms?" I said, "No...She will tell Anne and I want to be the one to tell Harry." They all nodded and looked at each other. Gigi said, "We don't think you should be alone tonight." Bella said, "So we are all going to sleepover." I nodded and said, "Thank you." I leaned on Bella's shoulder and she hugged me. I had tears falling down my cheeks and I laid down on her shoulder the whole car ride home. We pulled up to my apartment but they wouldn't let us in the garage for some weird reason. We parked in the outdoor parking lot. Bella grabbed a scarf blanket and then wrapped it around me so the paparazzi couldn't see my face. We got out of the car and Bella and Kendall held on to me and helped to hide my face. We got inside as quickly as we could but the paparazzi kept yelling questions and asking why I looked upset which did not make me feel any better. We finally got inside and then we went onto the elevator and rode up to my apartment. We got up to my apartment and I quickly ran up to my room and laid on my bed and buried my face into my pillow. I started crying and a few minutes later the girls all joined me and didn't say anything. They all laid down and cuddled me. And we all fell asleep...