Finding Love

Just when you thought it was over...

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I drove Harry's car to my apartment building and I parked it in the garage. I quickly went onto the elevator and went into my apartment. I ran into my room and jumped on the bed. I cried and cried and cried. I basically cried until I ran out of tears and then I went on my phone and went to twitter and tweeted:

heavens newest angel, darcy👼🏼

I then started crying even more and I got a phone call and I saw the caller ID. It was my doctor. I whipped my eyes and I answered the phone. I said, "Hello?" My doctor said, "Hello Brooke I just wanted to confirm that you were going to be at your 3 o'clock doctors appointment we have some very important things to discuss." I said, "Yes, I will be there." He said, "And I really think you should bring some one to come with you." I said, "Okay. I will see you then." I quickly hung up before I started crying again... Oh great, more bad news. After I had calmed down I then called the person I needed most at this moment... my mom. The phone rang a few times and then she answered. She said, "Hey Brooke!" I said,
"M-mom..." She said, "I'm on my way." She hung up and I laid on my bed under the covers crying. Around 15 minutes later I heard the front door open and less then a minute later my mom came into my room and she said, "Brooke." I looked up and she sat on my bed and hugged me. She said, "Brookie what happened?" I said, "I-I-I lost the baby!" I continued crying and she hugged me and rubbed my hair calming me. After a while I stopped crying. When I was fully calmed down my mom said, "Did you tell Harry yet?" I said, "Yes..." She said, "Okay that is good." I said, "I have a doctors appointment at 3." My mom said, "Why?" I said, "He wants to make sure there isn't something wrong with me." She said, "Okay you have two hours so I think you should take a shower and relax before you have to go." I said, "Okay." I stood up and I went into my bathroom and took a shower. I got in the shower and I took a shower which made me feel a little better. Not a lot, but a little. When I got out of the shower I went into my closet and got dressed. I put on a grey loose sweater long sleeve turtle neck ish dress. It ended at mid thigh and at the sides it went a little higher. I threw my hair into a high piny tail and it was curled with loose pieces hanging out in the front. For makeup I just put on concealer to hide my redness, mascara and chapstick. I threw on comfortable heeled black booties. I walked out of my room and then my mom said, "We should head out now if we don't want to be late." I said, "Okay." We walked downstairs and then we left my apartment and locked the door behind me. We went onto the elevator and rode down to the lobby. Cameras immediately started flashing. My mom held my hand and we walked to the car. We got in as quickly as we possibly could and ignored all of the questions that they were asking. My mom quickly drove away taking as many side streets as possible to get rid of the paparazzi which I think we may have succeeded in. We pulled up to the hospital and we walked through the back entrance and we told the front desk that we were here and the lady immediately led us to a room. She opened the door and my doctor was in there. We went inside and the lady closed the door behind us and then my doctor, his name is Doctor Burke incase you were wondering. He stood up and shook our hands and then greeted us and we sat down. He said, "Okay so I know you have been having many problems with getting pregnant and heart problems, so I just wanted to run a CT and a couple of tests to make sure that everything is okay." I said, "Okay." He said, "So follow me and I will take you to the CT room." My mom and I stood up and we followed him down the hall into a room with a giant machine. He handed me a hospital gown and said, "Okay you can go into the bathroom and change into this and then we will begin!" I nodded and went into the bathroom and put on the hospital gown. I then walked out of the bathroom and Doctor Burke said, "Are you ready?" I nodded and he said, "Okay your mother will be in the hallway and then I will be in the scan room!" I nodded and they left and the nurse helped me on to the machine and I lied down. The nurse said, "Lie down and stay still this will only take around 10 minutes." I said, "Okay." She pushed the machine in and then the nurse left and I laid down and even though it only took 10 minutes it truly felt like hours. But when it was done the nurse and Doctor Burke came in and helped me out of the machine. Burke said, "Okay I am going to look through your scans and the nurse will take you to your room and take blood samples and in an hour or so I will have all of your results." I nodded and said, "Okay thank you." He left and the nurse put me in a wheel chair and brought me to my private room where my mom was waiting. The nurse helped me into the bed and then she got the needles and drew some of my blood. She then left when she was done and my mom sat down in a chair next to my bed and held my hand. We stayed silent for a few minutes and then my mom said, "Are you okay B?" I nodded and said, "Yeah I mean I have seen the worst and nothing can be worst than what I have already gone through." She nodded and held my hand and I laid down on the bed and we stayed silent. About half an hour later my moms phone kept ringing. I said, "You can answer it." She said, "Okay." She stood up and left the room and then answered the phone call. She talked on the phone for a few minutes and then she came back into the room. She said, "Im really sorry Brooke, but I have to go to dance because they won't let Paige be on camera unless I am there." I said, "Okay!" She said, "Are you sure because I can-" I cut her off and I said, "No really it's okay! I just have to wait for the test results and they should be ready any minute!" She said, "Okay thank you! Call me when you find out anything!" She hugged me and kissed my head and then left. I was alone in the room and I had nothing to do. I didn't want to look at my phone because I knew it would be filled with texts from Harry and so many other people asking what is wrong and I truly didn't want to talk about it... I became so caught up in my thoughts that at first I did not notice Burke standing there. He cleared his throat and I looked up and I saw him. He looked upset, so I knew it was bad news... Of course, I never get a break... He walked closer to me and I sat up getting more and more worried the longer he stayed silent. I knew it was bad. After a few more minutes of silence I said, "Please just tell me, I can handle it." He cleared his throat again and then he said, "Brooke...I don't know how to tell you this but...you have cancer..." I said, "W-what?" He said, "You have a tumor that spread over your whole heart and..." He stopped and stayed silent and then I said, "Tell me!" He said, "You have less than six months to live if you don't get a heart transplant, but you have the most rare blood type so it will be very hard to find a transplant heart." I felt tears falling down my cheeks. He said, "This explains why you could not get pregnant your heart could not handle a pregnancy." I felt tears falling down my cheeks and I couldn't stop crying. He said, "I will give you some time to process but I will call you for a follow up and in the mean time I will call UNOS and put you on the transplant list." He then left and I continued crying for a very long time and then I stopped. I then put back on my clothes and I went to the lobby and I walked through the waiting room and I heard someone call my name. I turned around and I saw Cory. I ran over to him and hugged him. I said, "How do you know that I was here?" He said, "Your mom called me, let me take you home so we can talk." I nodded and he held on to me and we walked outside and he lead me to his car. We got in and he drove me to my house and the whole car ride I was crying. We pulled up to my apartment and we got out of the car and I still had tears dripping down my cheeks. Paparazzi were surrounding me and Cory covered my face and he blocked me. We went inside as quickly as we could and then we went on to the elevator and we went up to my apartment. We got in my apartment and I dropped my bags and I ran up to my room and I bursted into tears and I began crying. I laid on my bed and I could not stop crying. I was going to die...