Finding Love

Prepping for an emotion rollercoaster

I heard my alarm so I quickly got up and threw on black pants, and over size long sleeve baggy white v-neck dress and black mini boots. I brushed my hair and then fixed my makeup and grabbed my stuff and drove to the Ama. I pulled up and went in and I was led into a rehearsal room. Scooter then said, "You were chosen to do an Ama video diary where they kind of video tape you're prepping and all. Do you want to do it?" I said, "Ya I feel that would be good for me to get through this performance because I'm really nervous." He nodded and I signed he contract and then I started rehearing a bunch of times and then I sat down and got a drink of water for a break and my tour manager Linda said, "Was it hard to smile at the end?" I said, "A little bit, but I feel like on the day it'll be such a release. I'm just excited that people everywhere who are feeling what I feel and feel that will get to see that and I- and I just want people to be able to relate to that." We went back to rehearsals and I was still waiting to give it my full performance. Then towards the end Baz who was my vocal coach said, "Can you go there emotionally?" I nodded and turned on one of my favorite warship songs called ocean and sat in the middle of the floor. When I started getting emotional I stood up and shut off the music and said, "Okay let's do it." I then started singing and was nervous and kept holding my stomach. After I finished I was crying and they all hugged me and told me how great I did. We then decided to work on the background and for the next few hours we edited that and when we were finally done Scooter said, "Lee wants you to look at all the outfits and choose." I nodded and went to my dressing room and Lee said, "So we have a bunch of choices." After a while we picked it out and I got in my car and started driving back home but then I decided to go back to the tattoo shop. I pulled up and went in and saw the same guy. I said, "You tricked me!" He said, "Well did you regret the tattoo." I nodded and he said, "Did you come to get a real one?" I nodded and I said, "I want to get the wolf you feed is the wolf that wins on my rib cage." He nodded and said, "Now that's a better choice!" I smiled and sat down as he started working and cringed at the pain. When it was done I look a picture and posted it on Instagram and captioned:
In honor of my dad and the album release!
I then saw my album was at number one!!!! I screamed and the guy laughed and I posted on twitter:
OMG I HAVE THE BEST FANS IN THE WORK MY ALBUM IS AT NUMBER ONE I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!
I then paid and drove home and went to sleep...
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I woke bright and early at 6:30 to be exact. I then showered and blow dried my hair and threw on a random outfit and drove to the Ama for dress rehearsal. Scooter picked me up and drove me and I got there and put on my performance dress and then my hair was in a high ponytail. I performed it full out with the background and everything. After I was done rehearsing we edited the background and watched the video. After we perfected it and everything Scooter drove me to the hotel and then when we pulled up he said, "You can meet Lee in room 2A and she's had your makeup and everything and there's a bunch of people there and you just have to get ready and I'll meet you backstage before your performance." I nodded and hugged him and then said, "Thank you for everything Scooter!" He said, "No problem kiddo and your music video should be out before red carpet." I smiled and he said, "You're gonna be fine Brooke." I smiled and then got out of the car and went up to room 2A and hugged Lee and she said, "Now let's get started!" She then started on my makeup and then 4 and a half hours later she finished with my hair, nails, and makeup it was done! My makeup was flawless. My skin looked perfect and then my eyebrows were filled in and I had eyeliner on top and bottom but it wasn't winged and then I had fake lashes and light brown eyeshadow. My lipstick was a pale pink/nude color and my hair was in a high ponytail. My nails were just white. I then had on a robe and turned to the camera and started filming and answering a bunch of questions about how I felt and all and then the camera left the room and I got dressed and put on my dress. It was a one shoulder white straight floor length gown with a slit going up one side and on that same side there was a metallic silver fabric area thing. I then out on a diamond chocker necklace and small stud earrings. I had white pointed toe heels and one ring on my index finger. Lee then handed my a metallic silver clutch and then we took pictures and got in the limo and drove to the arena. We pulled up and...