Finding Love

Too much drama for the Billboards

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After she had finished on all my hair and makeup it was 2 exactly. My makeup was:
The usual flawless face stuff
Top and bottom black eyeliner with a small wing
Individual fake eyelashes and mascara
Light brown and black eyeshadow
Defined cheek bones and blush
Lees usual flawless high lighting and contouring routine
A pale pink shiny ish lipstick
My hair then was in a sort of side ish part but you couldn't see it that much since it was not sharply defined like usual. Then it was straight but still had a wave to it and looked a little messy. She said, "And now we actually have this custom outfit Oliver Rousting from Balmain made just for you!" I squealed from excitement I sort of had a huge Balmain obsession!!!! She handed me the bag with every thing in and I put it on. It was a spaghetti strapped long pants one piece. The top part had a sort of deep but not too much v neck so you could see some cleavage in the front and then on both sides there was triangle cut outs and the top looked like a bra but it wasn't really. Then their were pants that were attached to it since it was a one piece and they were flared sort of pants. The whole thing was white sort of sequin material but it was a lot more comfortable then it sounds! I then put on white pointed toe shoes and I walked out of the bath room and Lee said, "Damn girl you look good!" I smiled and did a spin and she said, "And your accessories..." She handed me this silver three d circle spirally bracelet and a giant ring and she said, "Actually I will put them on for you!" She put the bracelet on my left wrist and the ring on my right middle finger. She said, "And now my favorite part!" She took out a clutch and immediately my mouth dropped. I said, "I LOVE IT!" It was a squared black hard clutch with Bad Blood written on it in red and I said, "This is actually perfect!" She said, "Well I am glad you think so!" Her phone beeped and she looked at it and smiled and said, "And your next surprise is down stairs!" I said, "What surprise?" She said, "You will see!" I smiled and we went down stairs and when the elevator doors opened I saw Josh and he was in a black suit and a white tie matching my outfit. I ran out and I hugged him. I said, "YOU ARE COMING WITH ME!" He nodded and said, "Just in case I have to beat up Styles!" I laughed and I pulled him into another hug and I said, "I am just so excited you haven't been to an award show with me for so long!" He nodded and Lee said, "Scooter said the car is out front and all the girls are in it waiting for you two!" I nodded and grabbed Josh's hand and we walked outside and into the car. We got in and saw all of the other girls and they looked gorgeous! I sat down and I hugged them all and I said, "Well Josh is crashing our girls party!" Then Taylor said, "It's all good we can use some boys!" They cheered and Martha said, "Um excuse me can you turn on the radio?" The driver said, "Yes!" He turned on the radio and we listened to music and danced and sang along really loudly. When we were near the venue I pulled out my phone and posted the last picture which was of Selena and I had captioned it:

Meet Arysn.

@/selenagomez
#BadBloodMusicVideo

When we pulled up to the event we all got out and I held Josh's hand and we walked down the beginning of the red carpet and when we got to the posing area I took a few pictures with Josh and then I joined the other girls and we looked around and posed at who ever was yelling at us. The order was Zendaya Hailee Me Taylor Martha! After a while we all posed individually and then I said, "We have to do interviews don't we!" Taylor nodded and I groaned and I said, "They always ask the same thing!" Zendaya said, "Well I don't know about you guys but I am just going to get them over with!" Martha said, "Agreed!" We all went over to the interview area and we all went to different people and I went over to Ryan Seacrest. I hugged him and he kissed my cheek and he said, "Now step onto the mini stage!" I stepped onto the mini rises stage thing and he handed me a microphone and he said, "Hello every one I am now on the red carpet with Brooke Hyland!" I smiled and then he said, "First we have to ask who are you wearing?" I said, "Balmain! Aka my obsession!" He laughed a little and then I said, "I am actually proud of my self because I never know!" He laughed and said, "Okay now we know you most likely don't want to talk about it but we have to talk about the pictures released of your fiancé Harry Styles!" I nodded and he said, "Well we all know you found out during that interview but what every one wants to know is what did he- or rather what did you and Harry talk about!" I said, "Um...I haven't seen him so we didn't talk yet." He nodded and said, "Well there is another reason why this is a very sad day is because this is the first award show where Zayn Malik is not going to be here!" I nodded and said, "I actually don't know anything more than you all know and I have not talk to him yet!" Ryan said, "Well I am going to let you go since you have a lot of talking to do!" I laughed and then I hugged him and said, "I will see you inside!" I walked away and then I had done a bunch of more interviews where they all asked me the same...thing! Not really any thing about my music just all about Harry and Zayn and honestly it was getting on my nerves! I however was FINALLY done so I walked back over to the girls and I said, "Um do you guys know where Josh went?" Hailee said, "He went inside the venue!" I said, "Okay do you guys want to go in?" Taylor said, "Sure we probably have to get ready!" We all nodded and we then went inside a man lead us to our seats which were in the front row. We walked to the row and I saw the boys of one direction were sitting in our row. The orders from left to right was Zendaya Hailee Martha Taylor Josh me Harry Niall Liam Louis. I saw Josh was talking to Kendall and Kylie who were two rows behind us. I walked over to them and I hugged both of the girls and I said, "I wish you guys could have been in the music video!" Kendall said, "Ya I was so bummed when I found out we already had some thing that we could not cancel!" Kylie said, "Ya it sucked but from what I saw the video had looked amazing!" I said, "Aw thanks guys!" The light dimmed telling us the show was starting soon. I said, "Oh I have to go sit down!" The nodded and Josh said, "See you guys after the show!" We walked to our seats and with out me saying it Josh just sat down in my seat knowing I would want to switch. I could feel Harry staring at me so I turned to the girls and I whispered, "Is he still staring at me?" They all nodded and I rolled my eyes and I whispered, "Ugh just tell him to fuck off!" Zendaya said, "Styles! Fuck off!" I bursted out laughing and I said, "This is why I love you Z!" I walked over to her and gave her a hug. Hailee said, "We have to take a selfie!" We all nodded and Taylor held the camera and we all got in the frame and I did a pout/ duck face and she took the picture then the lights turned all the way off so I quickly went back to my seat and sat down. An announcer said, "And now starting the show we have BROOKE HYLANDS BAD BLOOD MUSIC VIDEO!" The audience cheered and I held onto Taylor and Josh's hands and the video started. When it was almost over a guy came over to us and he said, "It's time!" We walked on stage and a minute or so later the video ended and then audience was screaming so loud! After they quieted down and I said, "I am so excited to have shared my music video for Bad Blood with all of you! Now we all have the honor of presenting..." We all yelled, "VAN HALEN!" The audience cheered and we walked down and he started his performance. I sat down and they all hugged me and people around me congratulated me. I smiled and thanked them all and then I heard Harry whisper, "That was an amazing video babe." I sarcastically laughed and said, "I'm not your babe." I rolled my eyes and I turned back to face the stage and after Van Halen performed. We all cheered and then Ne-Yo walked one stage and he said, "This year I was given the honor of presenting the top artist! And then nominees are!" A video played and showed all of the nominees who were Ariana Grande, Katy Perry, One Direction, Sam Smith and me. After it ended Ne-Yo said, "And the winner is...BROOKE HYLAND!" Everyone cheered and I stood up and smiled. I hugged Josh then all of the girls and I walked on stage and hugged him and he handed me the award. I smiled and walked over to the microphone and I made a shocked face and awkwardly held up the award. I moved my hair out of my face and said, "Oh this is such a good night! This is such a good night! Um I know my brother is graduating from high school tomorrow and this is sort of like a graduation for us because it honors what we achieved but it also reminds us that we have so much more learning to do we have so much more to accomplish and so much more to fight for so this is what I'm gonna consider this! I love you to the fans I can't wait to see you on the next world tour! I LOVE YOU! Thank you!" I waved and then I smiled and walked off the stage and a bunch of people congratulated me and then I gave the award to the person I was supposed to! I went back into the audience and my seat and everyone congratulated me and I sat down and then I watched them present the next award and then Zendaya went back stage and after a minute or so she walked on and then she said, "Today I am presenting the chart achievement award which is all fan voted! The nominees are!" The video played and it showed the nominees who were Iggy Azalea Meghan Trainor and me! She said, "And the winner is...BROOKE HYLAND!" I smiled and stood up and hugged everyone around me and I walked on stage and I hugged Zendaya and she said, "Congrats girl!" I smiled and said, "Thank you!" She handed me my award and I walked up to the microphone and I said, "Um this was the one that was completely up to the fans and completely up to the people on Instagram and Twitter and Tumblr and um honestly this is unbelievable that you did this because honestly to the fans online I'm obsessed with you! You guys are the reason that anything had happened to me this year the way that it's happened! Ugh!" I turned to the side then went back to the mic and I said, "And I know you fought really really hard for this and um I want to shout out of course to Iggy and Meghan because they are amazing and I am just happy to be in a category with them! And this is such a good night! What even good!" I opened my arms to emphasis the affect! I said, "Thank you!" I smiled and walked toward Zendaya with my mouth open and then we walked backstage together and then I gave my award to thane person and I thanked everyone who sugar congratulated me and together we walked back into the audience. We sat down and a little while later Jennifer Anniston came onstage and she said, "Now we will honor girl power by awarding the top female artist! And the nominees for this category is..." The video played and then nominees were Iggy Ariana Grande Katy Perry Meghan Trainor and me! She then said, "And the winner is...BROOKE HYLAND!" I smiled again and I stood up and I hugged the girls and then Josh and Harry then pulled me in for a hug and whispered, "We need to talk." I pulled away and then I walked on stage and hugged Jennifer and she handed me my award and I went up to the microphone and I said, "To um to win female artist is incredible because one of the best things that had happened to me in the last year is that I have surrounded my self with incredible women and in the music video that we just showed you tonight there are so many of my best friends and people I admire Ellen is in it! Seraya is in it! Zendaya is in it! Hailee Martha Taylor. Who else is in it that I'm missing... Any way l my friends who are watching this at home who were in it I love you! All my friends who weren't in it I love you! All the girls who I talk to all the time on the Internet about our feelings and you teach me all the teen slang thank you for that! Thank you for caring about my music and to all the girls out there I absolutely love you! Thank you for this award!" I smiled and backed up and then I walked off stage and did what I always did and went into the audience. I watched more of the show and then Ellen Pompeo walked on stage and she said, "Tonight I was given the honor to present there billboards top 200 artist there are many amazing people in this category so here are the nominees!" The video played and the nominees were One Direction Pentatonix Ed Sheeran Sam Smith and me! After the video ended she went up to the microphone and said, "And the winner is... The lonely miss Brooke Hyland!" I smiled again and hugged every one around me and walked on to the stage and hugged Ellen and she handed me the award and I walked up to the microphone and I said, "Wow first I want to thank you all for embracing the whole change! Me doing something new ill never forget it! To the fans that I talk to online and the ones that I see at the shows Ugh!" I held my heart and then I said, "I love you so much more then I'll ever be at to say to you thank you sooo much!" I waved and then I walked of stage and I was talking to Ellen a little and then I took pictures back stage and I went back into the audience to watch the show...
After the show was over I had one four more awards. Eight in total:
Top Artist
Billboard Chart Achievement (fan voted)
Top Female Artist
Top Billboard 200 Album
Top Billboard 200 Artist
Top Hot 100 Artist
Top Digital Song Artist
Top Streaming Song (video)
One direction had won Top duo/ group and top touring artist. When the show ended we stood up and the girls and I were all going to Christie Teegans after part since she was the host. I went to walk out but I felt some one grab my hand and I knew exactly who it was. I turned around and crossed my arms and then I said, "What." He said, "Why are you giving me the cold shoulder!" I sarcastically laughed and said, "You are kidding right!" He said, "No." I said, "God what did you loose your phone!" He said, "Actually yes!" I said, "Well maybe if you find that stripper who gave you a lap dance she'll know where it is!" He said, "Wha- Brooke it wasn't like that!" I said, "Then please explain it to me!" He was trying to find the words to say and I rolled my eyes and walked away and went outside where a person handed came over to me and said, "They want you to pose with your awards!" I said, "Oh okay!" I walked on the red carpet and they had placed the awards on me so they wouldn't fall and I posed and then after a while they let me go and said they would send the awards to my management which they always do. I then I went into our car where the other girls were and then Hailee said, "Brooke you killed it!" I smiled and said, "Aw thanks!" We all went on our phones and I saw a picture some one took of the back of us while we were on stage presenting Van Halen. I showed the girls and I said, "We literally look like a girl band!" They all nodded and I posted it on Instagram captioned:

Sort of feeling like a girl band...

We pulled up to the after party and we went inside and danced sang and took a bunch of pictures in the photo booth. Mainly I took them with Camila Louis Niall Martha and all of the other girls. I posted a picture of me holding all of my awards and I captioned it:

This felt like a dream sequence. I never forget that you're the reason my life is like this. Thank you for all of it.

I also posted a picture of me Camila Scott Scooter Tori Mitch and Prince Royce in the photo booth and I captioned it:

what happens in the photo booth......stays in the photo booth📷😉

It was 1 am and we were all tired so we got in our cars and drove home. I pulled up to my apartment and I went inside and I locked my door and fed Marilyn. Then I went upstairs and I saw Harry laying down on my bed asleep. I picked up my cup of water next to my bed and dumped it on his head and he jumped up and said, "What the hell!" I said, "Get out!" He said, "No we need to talk!" I rolled my eyes and said, "Just leave!" I walked into my closet and threw on pajamas and I took off my makeup and then I walked back out and he was still there. I said, "Didn't I tell you to leave!" He said, "I will just let me explain!" I said, "You have two minutes." He said, "Brooke..." I said, "Hurry time is ticking." He said, "Okay after we got in a fight I went to the bar with Nick and we had a few drinks but I was not drunk! He had some hired girl come and give me a lap dance but I hated it!" I rolled my eyes and said, "Is that all?" He said, "I also want to tell you that I tried pushing her off and when it was over I immediately went home and all I wanted to do was talk to you!" It was silent and I said, "Okay well you should go." He sighed and kissed my forehead and he walked out and he turned back and said, "You know I really need you to help me with all that is going on..." I nodded and then he left and shut the door behind him and I sighed and laid down and slowly fell asleep.