𝐹𝑖𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼𝑐𝑒 [𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢/𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜]

Chapter 38 - Mid morning cuddles.

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
(Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol)

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Chapter 38 - 'Mid morning cuddles'

DAY 424

MIDORIYA's POV

"Can we keep it between us for a bit?" – I asked.

It was supposed to be an harmless question but maybe I should have phrased it differently, because I felt like I made it seems that I was ashamed to let people see us together and that really wasn't the case, if anything being seen with him would have made me happy and proud; I just wanted to make things right from the start and avoid any other disaster.
Though, I knew I already fucked it up when I notice him looking at anything but me; he nodded and tried to walk past me without a word.

'Great job Izuku!'

"Wait..." - I said instinctively grabbing one of his wrists and I immediately regretted it as I saw him flinch at the contact. I wondered by how many cuts and scars his wrists were covered with, but I was scared to know the answer to that question.

"It's not what you think, really..." - I sighed letting go of his wrist.

"What it is then?" - he asked in a monotone voice turning around. I hated how it sounded, it made him sound like he used to be at the very beginning of our first year at UA: empty and emotionless, a Shōto that I wished I'd never see again. Though the reason I hated it the most right then, was that it made me unable to tell if he was more pissed or hurt by my last words.

"I just...I don't want to go back to ignore each other, and this has definitely nothing to do with you, it's just that I have to fix a couple things before anything goes wrong..."

"Are you ashamed or is regret setting in? Which one? It doesn't really matter though, whichever it is, it's not going to change in a day or two Midoriya." - he said with the same tone.

"I'm not ashamed, it's just...my friendship with Iida is already on the line and I don't want to make it worse. I just think it would be better if I tell him myself than have him walk in the room to see it. I don't want to make another mess... " - I tried to explain the best I could. The way Iida turned his back to me still made me angry and sad, but I still thought of him as a friend even if I probably shouldn't have.

"It's stupid and that's honestly the lamest excuse you could come up with..." - he said and by the expression that quickly washed over his face, I knew he was mad at me.

"How is trying to save a friendship stupid?"

"He doesn't even talk to you anymore. What's the point of showing him respect if he won't show you any? You want to tell him on your own? Ok, do it. I don't think it will make it any better, he's probably going to be an ass about it anyway." - he said sighing at the end as he lowered his gaze to the floor.

"Hello my dudes!" - Kaminari said walking down the stair with Shinsō close behind. I would have smiled if the situation were different. I noticed how Shinsō and Denki had been getting closer lately, and I would have bet anything on the fact that Denki was growing a huge crush on him.

"You finally made up! Yey!" - he added stopping for a few seconds next to us and swinging a arm around my neck.

Shōto scoffed making me feel worse about our misunderstanding and more aware of how far from that point we were; apparently, we had a long way to go. It was just a few hours before that we were making out in his bedroom and now, we were fighting again thanks to my inability to express myself correctly.