𝐹𝑖𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼𝑐𝑒 [𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢/𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜]

Chapter 42 - Silent mind

If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
(Everything I wanted - Billie Eilish)
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Chapter 42 - Silent mind

DAY 427

Did I really expect to go unnoticed standing in the middle of the common room alone?
Did I really expect them to ignore me as they used to do last year? It was naive of me to think they would, especially after my failed suicide attempt; the more I tried to ignore it, the more I'd notice how they all kept staring at me and keeping track of my every action. Damn, I hated it.
As people started to walk into the dorms, I could see everyone giving me glances. The loudest of the class quickly made their way towards me asking questions in a rather noisy way, questions that I obviously ignored because I didn't want to answer and let them any more aware of my family business. At least Denki wasn't annoying me, because Shinso was considerate enough to grab his wrist and pull him away whispering something in his ear.
I knew there would have been a moment when I'd had to answer all of their questions, but I just wanted to postpone that moment as much as I could.

Jirō walked in followed by Miyako and Momo who rushed to me as soon as her eyes landed on me, though she struggled a lot to pass through the people around me. She took my hand in hers and dragged me after her without a word, I could just assume that we were going to her room.
I was about to tell her that I just wanted to talk with Miyako for a second and leave, but I shut up as I noticed that she was following us as well as Jirō who had just shouted something along the line of 'give him space'.
I felt honestly threatened but it was hilarious how she'd tell others to back off when they were literally dragging me away to ask questions.

Momo let go of me once we entered her room and I just took a couple steps away to put some distance between us as Jirō closed the door behind her back, being the last one to walk in.

"How are you?" - Momo asked with a worried expression as she fiddled around with the bracelet on her left wrist.

I let out a sigh but kept silent as I set at the end of Momo's bed. I honestly had no strength or will to deal with their questions and I was not in the mood to appreciate her kindness, nor to pretend I was fine.

"Listen boo, we just want to make sure you're okay..." - Jirō sighed sitting next to me.

"Do you want me to pretend I believe this bullshit?" - I scoffed. I could see Jirō frown annoyed by my side as Momo seemed to swallow harshly and Miyako rested against the wall with no expression.

"Alright then, let's do it your way then. Is there any truth in what Uraraka said?" - Jirō asked dropping the caring tone and turning into an annoyed bitch. I hated when she did that, though I could somewhat relate to her attitude

"Straight to the point..." - I groan letting my back hit the mattress of Momo's bed.

"Isn't it how you wanted it? You didn't seem to appreciate Momo's way..." - Jirō scoffed lightly kicking one of my legs.

"It doesn't really matter what she said." - I mumbled closing my eyes with a sigh. I thought they'd know better than bombarding me with questions and deep down, I wished they'd just pretend they didn't hear a word Uraraka said at least for the day. That was really unrealistic, but I could dream right?

"Shōto, if there's any truth in what she said, it's a big issue..." - Momo's voice echoed in the room as I felt the bed deepen a bit on my right side. I opened my eyes to see Momo sitting next to me with a frown as one of her hands tried to get a hold of one of mine. I shugged her off quickly and, even if she seemed hurt by the gesture, I couldn't feel guilty at all; I dreaded any form of physical contact in that moment. All I wanted was some space.