𝐹𝑖𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼𝑐𝑒 [𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢/𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜]

Chapter 25 - Gone

Hide my head, I want to drown my sorrow
no tomorrow, no tomorrow...
(Mad World ~ Gary Jules and Michael Andrews)

Chapter 25 - 'Gone'

Day 292

TODOROKI'S POV

~ Dream/flashback ~

Toya and Natsuo run around laughing loudly while Fuyumi sat under the cherry tree showing me an illustrated book making funny faces as mommy caressed my hair.

"I won!" - Natsuo yelled sitting next to mom.

"That's because you cheat all the times!" - Tōya said crossing his arms over his chest. Natsuo stuck his tongue out making fun of Tōya. They both laughed making mommy smile fondly at them.

"Tōya!" - daddy's voice boomed in the yard. Tōya smile faltered and without saying another word he turned around and walked towards daddy who waited angrily by the door. Mommy's grip on me become a little tighter as she placed a kiss on my head while Natsuo took Fuyumi's book and started running around, Fuyumi soon chasing after him.

"Why daddy always play with Tōya-nii?" - I asked looking up at my mommy. She frowned placing another kiss on my head but didn't say a word.

~

Mommy smiled lightly stretching her hand towards me inviting me to reach for her. I run into her arms feeling her arms closing around me in an embrace. I felt warm and loved again.

"I hate him, mommy I-I don't won't to be like daddy. Someone who bullies my mommy. I don't wanna be like that!"

Mommy held me tightly for a moment, then she let me go drying my tears with her cold hand.

"It's time to wake up now sweety" - she said smiling warmly and embracing me again letting me hide my head into her white hair.

~ Present time ~

White.
That was the first thing I saw when I lazily opened my eyes. For a brief moment I thought it was finally over and I could feel my chest get lighter, though it didn't last much longer. The sound of the heart monitor crushed my hope immediately making me clench my fist in anger and desperation. I didn't make it.

"Welcome back Todoroki" - a voice from my bed side said.
"You're in a hospital. I'm Asuka Takahashi and I'm going to be your nurse for this shift. Your family will arrive shortly." - she added.

I shifted my glance around the room feeling my eyes burning with tears as reality become a bit clearer with every passing minute.

'This is not fair! Let me go!'

"How are you feeling? Are you in physical pain?" - the nurse asked. I speared her a glance before I adverted my eyes and let tears fall. She didn't utter another word and started fumbling with my IV. What kind of question was that? Why would physical pain be important? I sliced my arm, yet I felt nothing, why would I even complain about physical pain? Sure, I felt horrible, my body was heavy and numb, and my head seemed about to explode but I didn't care...

'Why am I not dead?'

I wanted to ask how the hell did I end up in that bed alive but couldn't find the strength or will to talk. There was a knock on the door, I didn't bother to look or pay attention. I just stared at the image passing on the muted tv hanging on the wall.

"Your relatives just arrived, I'll let your father and sister in. Ok?" - I glanced shortly at her but gave no answer. I didn't want to see Fuyumi, the old man or anyone at all but I guess I had no say in it.
Silently sighing I just let her do her things turning my gaze to the silenced tv screen hanging on the opposite wall again, there was no point in struggling.