𝐹𝑖𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼𝑐𝑒 [𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢/𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜]

Chapter 50 - Silence

Say I shouldn't be here but I can't give up his touch
It is him I love, it is him I love.

(HIM - Sam Smith)

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Chapter 50 - Silence

DAY 494

If walking back into class in the middle of Cementos's lecture made me feel uncomfortable, eating lunch in the canteen made me nauseous: it was loud, people gossiped and stared not bothering to hide it at all. It didn't matter how hard I tried to convince myself that they weren't talking about me or looking at me, it didn't matter how hard I tried to ignore that feeling, I couldn't help it.

UA was definitely not a common highschool, but quirk aside, the students that filled the hallways were just normal teenagers and as such, they liked to gossip.
They liked to talk so much that it took just a few hours for rumors about Uraraka's expulsion to spread around the entire school; apparently someone from the general department saw her being escorted out by teachers and that was enough to start an incredible amount of rumors.

The thought that I was just being paranoid was quickly erased when Kendo stopped by our table to ask Momo what happened, that left little space to doubts. I had to pretend not to notice the way Momo spared me a glance before telling her that she was in class and had no idea of what had happened.

By the end of classes, I had a terrible headache and just wanted to sleep, but I forced myself to  hang out with Momo and do my homework with her help.
I felt bad that she had to put up with me and repeat things at least twice for me to understand because I kept spacing out the entire time.
By the time dinner time rolled around Izuku was still nowhere to be seen in the dorms and the uneasiness I felt throughout the day seemed to worsen, leaving me to lay in bed awake unable to fall sleep.
The room felt so damn cold and empty, and while I tossed around, to my utter shame, I realized how dependent on Izuku's presence I was.
I don't know when I managed to fall asleep, but I know that when the alarm rang, I still had a raging headache and barely enough energy left to go through another entire day.

By the way Bakugō looked at me when I walked into the common room, I could tell that I must have looked like shit; well, that wasn't something new, besides I felt like shit too.

"What's wrong?" - Momo asked placing a plate full of food in front of me as she sat next to me. I thanked her even if just staring at the food in front of me made me nauseous, and forced myself to speak when all I wanted to do was crawl back into bed and sleep.

"Nothing's wrong, I just didn't get much sleep tonight..." - I mumbled poking at the food in my plate barely managing to keep my eyes open. She spared me a glance but said nothing, only speaking to greet Miyako and Kyoka when they finally showed up and sat at the table with their breakfasts.

"Have you seen Izuku?" - I asked Momo after a while, interrupting whatever conversation they were having.

"No? I thought he came to your room last night as usual..." - Momo said giving me a confused glance.

"No, he didn't. Do you know if he came back at all?"

"If you haven't seen him, why should we have?" - Miyako asked glancing at me before resuming to eat.

"I don't know..." - I mumbled resuming to poke the food in my plate and pretending not to notice the disappointed expression on Momo next to me. I got that she wasted time to make breakfast for the both of us, and I was really thankful that she did but, as much as I appreciated it, I honestly had zero appetite.