𝐹𝑖𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼𝑐𝑒 [𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢/𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜]

Chapter 31 - Freedom

This voice inside
has been eating at me,
trying to embrace the picture I paint
and colour me free.

(Heaven ~ Troye Sivan)

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⚠️ HOMOPHOBIC BEHAVIOR WARNING ⚠️

Chapter 31 - Freedom

DAY 352

MIDORIYA's POV

Uraraka kept talking about something I didn't bother to pay attention to. I wasn't interested, way too lost in my own mind, trying to find the right words to finally put an end to the mess I created myself.
I had been thinking about it for a long time at that point, and if there was something I came to understand, it was that there were no right words; whatever I'd end up saying, she would end up hurt.
I didn't want to hurt her even if she used me and controlled me for too long, even if she hurt me more than I had the courage to tell anyone.

"Ochaco..." - I said with a sigh trying to make her stop talking, I had come to a point where I even hated hearing her voice. The more she talked, the more I had to force myself to keep calm and act nicely.

"You're not listening at all, are you?" - she whined. I let out another sigh before standing up and taking her hand as gently as I could to walk out into the backyard. It was time for me to finally do the right thing, it didn't matter if I couldn't find the right words and I would be hurting her feeling. That had to be done.

"What the hell Deku? Why are we out here?" - she complained again crossing her arms over her chest clearly more than a bit annoyed.

"We need...well, I need to talk to you, and I think this better be between the two of us..."

"Fine, what is it? Say it so we can resume to plan our weekend, and then you can text your mom that we might stop by to say hi, I'm sure she would like to see us!"

"We won't go see my mom Ochaco, we won't plan anything. Listen, I've been thinking about it for a long time now... When we started dating, I really liked you and I thought we'd be happy but...this relationship it's not working for me, at least not anymore..."

"What are you talking about?" - she asked frowning.

"What I'm trying to say is...I'm breaking up with you..."

"WHAT?!"

"I really tried to find the right words but I...there are no right words. The point is that it's not working Ochaco and I don't know if you don't realize it or if you just don't want to see and accept it but...you're trying to make me someone I'm not and it's suffocating me." - I said trying to keep eye contact even though I just wanted to look somewhere else.

"Suffocating you? I'M GIVING YOU EVERYTHING!" - She screamed getting closer and making me flinch a bit. I glanced towards the windows to see that a few of our classmates were already looking our way.

"Please, lower your voice Ochaco..." - I begged just above a whisper. Couldn't we do this like civil people without screaming and catching everyone's attention? I brought her outside so we could be alone and have some privacy...

"I scream all I want! I'm making sure you don't make mistakes you can't erase here!" - she said, her voice a bit lower but still too high for my liking.

"Avoid that I make mistakes? Seriously Ochaco? I've done a mistake after another ever since I've been with you..."

"Oh really? Name one then!"