𝐹𝑖𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼𝑐𝑒 [𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢/𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜]

Chapter 2- Not my friends

I've lied to you
The same way that I always do
This is the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you

(Pushing me away - Linkin Park)

Chapter 2 - 'Not my friends'

Day 7

I had been ignoring Midoriya the entire week and it has not been too hard since I didn't get paired with him for training once. He didn't even seem to mind or care about it at all, probably because he was busy with Uraraka the entire time and I would be lying if I'd say it didn't bother me. She has been around him all the time, even Iida and Asui seemed to not be able to fit into any conversation. It honestly made my guts squirm, but I tried my best to ignore the feeling.

I had no other choices than stay away from him.
My old man was pissed when I got home after hanging out with Midoriya. The training session he forced me into for the rest of the weekend turned out to be a proper beating. My body ached in every place and it was a royal pain in the ass to cover up all those bruises, but I had to. I was miserable and I hated to feel like that. I hated being weak as well and I hated that I couldn't even get close to someone, that my old man raged like a fool. I liked Midoriya, I liked him a lot more than I was supposed to do, I was crushing on him badly and that was the worst situation I could get myself into. He was constantly on my mind, making it just a matter of time before Endeavor would have found out and that scared the shit out of me. The moment my old man would have found out, I was going to be screwed.

So I just kept telling myself that ignoring him was the best thing for both of us even if it probably wasn't, and spent lunch break sitting on my own as I used to do before Midoriya came around.
So far I realized that Uraraka had some sort of crush on him as well, however, how Midoriya felt about her it was still a mystery to me. Even though I wished that he didn't like her back, it was clear as day that he definitely didn't hate her. Maybe they were going to fall in love and that was something I didn't fancy to see. It was going to be horrible to watch them be all lovey-dovey but at least he would have been happy, at least one of us would. I wished nothing more than for him to be happy, it didn't matter if I wouldn't because after all, happiness was never meant to be part of my existence.

"You're alright Todoroki-san?" - Yaoyorozu startled me as she sat down next to me. I nodded and kept silent waiting for her to say something because I didn't have any interest in starting a conversation. (We didn't talk much but we somehow got along well. )

"I've noticed that you've been sitting on your own all week. Are you sure you're ok?" - she asked again staring at me. Of course she noticed, I didn't expect any less from one of the best student in class...

"I just felt like being on my own for a while" - I murmured and went back to eating my cold soba. She nodded and started picking on her own food not questioning the topic any further...

"You don't mind if I sit with you from time to time, do you?" - she asked earning a shrug from me. It was strange for her to sit with me since she usually sat with Jiro, but I honestly didn't mind her presence: she was a quiet girl...
Yeah, I kept track of who sits with who during lunch: it's not like I had anything better to do during lunch anyway.
I looked at Midoriya's table, he was smiling at Uraraka as Iida and Asui seemed to have started their own conversation, probably unable to fit into the others' one. I sighed heavily turning my gaze to the food in front of me once again, I loved cold soba but suddenly I was feeling nauseous just looking at it.

'It's ok, he has every right to be happy with her. I have to push my stupid feelings aside, I'm not worth it, he deserves better.'

"For one who wants to be alone, you surely stare at your friends quite a lot. You look like you really want to be there." - she said trying to hide a laugh.