𝐹𝑖𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼𝑐𝑒 [𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢/𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜]

Chapter 48 - Screwed

Chapter 48- Screwed

DAY 493

TODOROKI's POV

I was a complete idiot and a damn coward.
Not that it was a surprise: through the years I realized that it was all I had been, always going on in life putting on a mask and pretending to be something else, someone else, it was just really hard to admit it.
But now that the mask that used to protect me was gone, with no way to put it back on and hide anymore, I had to find a way to accept the situation and move on.
I thought I would have apologized the following morning but I didn't get the chance because Izuku didn't show up for class, and once the school day was over I just couldn't build up a chance on my own by walking to his room because I simply lacked courage.
I had every intention to take the initiative, but the more I tried to force myself to act, the more I grew anxious and I'd inevitably end up cowering back.

"You're still in a fight?" - Momo asked standing next to me as we watched Aizawa lecture Kaminari and Sero about their 'disappointing' performance.
I glanced at her and sighed lightly: what was the point of lying anyway? It was obvious to everyone at that point. It had been almost a week and we haven't seen each other since that night.

Izuku had skipped a few more days of school after that night and I had been worried about him until this morning when he showed up for class; he seemed fine, maybe a bit tired as if he hadn't slept well for a couple nights, but that was it.
I could relate, I had trouble falling asleep without him next to me and even when I managed to, it would rather be restless sleep or straight up nightmares.
I missed him, I felt lonely even when I was around my friends and I found it even harder to focus on anything, studying was almost impossible and my stomach was knotted all day long. It was terrible.

Ok, it not that I expected Izuku to take the first step, but since he usually was one to take initiative, I kept hoping he would talk to me and make things easier for me.
But things never worked the way I wanted them to and since I was a fucking idiot and he didn't seem willing to take the first step, we ended up being in radio silent for way too long. That making me anxious to an extent I couldn't even explain myself: were we going to ignore each other all over again? Were we over? Was that how our relationship ended?
It felt that way to an extent.
We didn't have breakfast together anymore, we didn't hang out during lunch break, nor after school and that seemed to make it quite clear to everyone in class that something was off.
Momo, Jirō and Miyako didn't question it at first, they'd just gave me questioning glances, occasionally looking around to search for Izuku, who was obviously nowhere to be found.
But as days passed, they started to be too worried about my well-being to keep questions for themselves, so I had to give them some kind of explanation.
'We had a fight, it will be okay...' – was all I managed to come up with, and although it didn't seem to be enough to satisfy them, it seemed enough for Momo and Jirō to not question it any further. Miyako, on the other end, was something else to deal with...she was set on murder and I had to explain at least an hundred times that that situation wasn't his fault before she finally promised not to kick his ass.

Adding to my anxiety, Aizawa had the great idea to pair all of us in couples for the training of the day.
I knew it would have been awkward if I ended up paired up with Izuku, but I really hoped I would; that would have gave me the chance to talk to him. But luck was not on my side, and while I ended up paired with Tokoyami, Izuku ended up with Uraraka and that was definitely the worst scenario I could think about.
I couldn't avoid being pissed that they had to work together, especially after she smirked my way as she walked towards him.
She seemed so satisfied as she stood close to him, too much for my liking. She was too touchy as she'd try placing a hand on his shoulder or arm. Watching her talk to him as Izuku looked extremely uncomfortable made me sick.
I was sure I saw him take a step back every time she'd try to get closer to him and I saw him flinch when she finally managed to place a hand on his shoulder.