𝐹𝑖𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼𝑐𝑒 [𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢/𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜]

Chapter 28 - Back then

I can't imagine a world with you gone

(Hold On - Chord Overstreet)

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⚠️DISCLAIMER!⚠️
This part take place tight after Chapter 24, if you don't remember take a little look back at the last few lines. The flashbacks are from various chapters. To make it easier, at the end of every flashback there's gonna be a reference from which chapter it is.

Chapter 28 - Back then

Day 291

MIDORIYA'S POV

"Young Midoriya...." - All Might called my name for what might have been the hundredth time, yet I couldn't advert my eyes from the clean water that kept washing over my now clean hands before running in the sink.
The water stopped running as a hand rested on my shoulder.
My name was called over and over again, but my body kept standing still.
My lungs seemed not to work anymore as with every passing minute the air I breathed in only made my chest hurt more.
My hands gripped to the bedsheet of my own bed;  but I had no idea how I ended up sitting there. My body was freezing cold and no matter how hard I bit onto my lower lip, finally a sob escaped as tears started to pour again.
Things kept moving around me and voices spoke, but I couldn't hear or see anything; one of my hands gripped to my shirt just above my heart in a desperate attempt to make it hurt less while a heavy buzzing sound filled my mind along with memories I wished I could have erased.

'I'm sorry'

~ Flashbacks

"I just want to disappear, so no one has to...I want everything to stop forever." - he said. I glanced his way, he stood still with no emotion on his face once again, his eyes fixed on the tea I assumed was already cold. It was only a whisper, yet I felt like he had screamed at the top of his lungs.

"What do you mean you want everything to stop? You mean dying?"

"Life is just...I just...I don't know..."

'You know, I know you do...'

I let my finger brush against the back of his hand until he gave me his hand and I could pull up the sleeve of his shirt. I sighed at the sight of his perfect skin, yet I couldn't stop the shivers of fear running down my spine. He was asking for help, I knew that much, but I didn't know what I needed to do for him. I just hold his hand.

'How dark are the thoughts inside your head?'
'How do I help you now?'
'What can I do for you?'
'Is there really no one you'd live for?'

(DAY 27 - Chapter 5)

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I could see how he flinched at my touch, but I couldn't tell if it was because I was touching the scar he so hardly tried to hide or just because my fingers were cold. His skin was rough to the touch. I couldn't even imagine how bad it must have hurt back then, not just the physical pain, but the mental scar she left on him.
I could understand that he wanted to hide what he had been through, but I struggled to understand how could all that effort be worth it in the end; I doubted anyone would have cared.

"Why do you cover it all the time?"

"Because it's ugly, it makes me unattractive and no one wants to see it."