𝐹𝑖𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼𝑐𝑒 [𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢/𝐷𝑒𝑘𝑢𝑇𝑜𝑑𝑜]

Chapter 17 - Out of reach

Well, maybe after all, I was better off dead.
Cause without you my life's gone down...
What do I do, when I find myself wanting to die?
(Dear angel ~ April Sixth)

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Chapter 17- 'Out of reach'

Day 65

'Is it even worth anymore?' - I kept asking myself this question every day. Was it really all the pain? Why did I keep Izuku in my life if all I felt looking at him and Uraraka was sadness and pain? I stopped being angry a while ago, there was no point in being angry at Izuku or at Uraraka for being in love with each other.

'You can't choose who to fall in love' - I kept telling that to myself to endure the heartache every glance at them gave me. It wasn't their fault, no matter how much I hated Uraraka, it wasn't her fault if he loved her instead of me. It wasn't something he chose after all, as I never chose to fall in love with him. It was just an unfortunate fate.

Yaoyorozu gave me a sad smile as she caught me looking at Izuku again. I felt like an idiot, it hurt me but even if I couldn't find a good reason for keeping him in my life, I always ended up staring at him. He was beautiful, his hair a mess, his teeth biting into his soft lip as he tried hard to find a way to explain something about our homework to Uraraka. His soft lips...

I hated how I couldn't get him off of my mind even if it was only hurting me keeping him around.

"Everyone gather around!" - Mr Aizawa yelled from the dorm's entrance recalling everyone's attention in the common room. Everyone walked towards him in silence hoping to not anger him. It wasn't the first time he showed up in the dorms to scold us for something stupid we did, it was usually Kaminari's fault.

This time though was different,and my heart stopped for a few moments when our eyes met.

"This is Nishimura Miyako. She's joining your class starting tomorrow. Be nice to her and behave, I'm talking to you Mineta! Yaoyorozu, her room is next to yours, show her around please." - he said quickly before walking away to have a few words with Miyako's parents.

"What are you doing here?" - I asked low enough for only her to hear me once I was in front of her. I knew everyone was staring at us thinking god knows what.

"I got transferred to UA" - she sighed.

"What are you talking about?" - I asked slightly panicked. I didn't want to keep our relationship act up every day, it was already exhausting faking it once in a week for me.

"You heard me. And don't give me that look, it was my parents doing. I was completely fine staying in Shiketsu" - she whispered.

I saw her parents looking at us from afar as I could feel my classmates still staring too. I so deeply wished for the floor to swallow me.

She placed a hand on my neck pulling me down a bit only making me stiffen.

"No, not in front of my classmates" - I said grabbing her wrist harshly enough to make her slightly flinch.

"My parents are here..." - she murmured through gritted teeth.

"Miyako he's here..." - I let out almost in a begging way.

"He? Who is here?" - she asked frowning. I didn't need to answer, it took her a few seconds to realize what I was talking about, but she knew.

With a sight she placed her arms around my neck and pulled me in a hug.