First Forever (GirlxGirl)

Lonely

Anna's POV

Mentally drained, that's how I felt. I facetimed my mother to get an update on Dad. We spoke for over an hour, just catching up and when I hung up I felt so alone and stressed. My father suffered a stroke on the left side of his brain. He was awake but was plagued with the after effects. Unable to speak properly and the right side of his body was immobile. I saw him hooked up to the machine and it took everything in me not to breakdown and cry.

I needed someone to talk to and I knew Esther was there for me but I didn't want to bombard her and I couldn't talk to Eva. Although I forgave Eva and as much as I loved her I never forgot what she said to me that day. Those words rolled off her tongue too easy for some part of it to not be true. I felt as if I would've slipped back to a mental space I promised myself I'd never visit again. I decided to talk to someone.

I got on the phone and arranged to pick up the individual at 6pm. I left home around 4:30 because the drive was an hour and change long and I wanted to cruise. I put on my music, windows down and cruised to my destination. When I got there I called and said I was outside. She came outside and got in the car.

"Hey Anna, where to?" she asked.

"Hey Dev, I know a place." I replied. I drove to the parking lot of an abandoned building.

"Here?!?" she asked with a not so pleasant expression on her face.

"Yeah, I come here when I need to figure out things." I answered. She nodded and we got out the car. We sat in the trunk and it was silent for about 5 minutes until she broke it.

"Why did you call me?" she asked.

"I need someone to talk to." I confessed.

"What about the girl you beat the shit out of that guy for?" she asked. I sighed because I didn't want to talk about Eva.

"What about her?" I asked but didn't expect an answer. She nodded indicating she understood.

"So, I'm all ears." she said.

I gave her the whole run down on the relationship with my parents because that took the most out of me mentally and emotionally. She listened intently and did not interrupt me once.

"How they've treated you is not your fault. They may think what they're doing is what's best for you, you know. They're so focused on making sure you have everything they didn't, they're unconsciously neglecting you. You are in dire need of affection, love and attention." she said.

"I've never thought about it like that." I said.

"And that also explains what I saw at the party." she continued.

"Huh? What are talking about?" I asked.

"Girrrlllllll, when you saw that boy dragging your girl, you squeezed my hand so hard." she giggled. "You pushed so many motherfuckers out the way to get to her before anything happened. At first I thought 'damn she really loves her friend' but then I saw her calm you down twice by just calling your name. I said no way that has to be more than a friendship." she continued.

"Yeah, she's more than a friend." I said.

"BUT it also feels like it's because you know what it's like to lack tlc you give that unconditionally to those you love. You try your best not to make them feel unwanted or unloved basically neglected like you. Also you have anger issues that stem from that as well." she said. I sat there with no response because how the fuck she figured things about me that I never even knew.

My thoughts were interrupted by a text from Eva.

                            Eva❤️😍
E: Boon, you good?

Me: Yh, r u?

E: Ok, I'm here when ur ready.

Me: ok😘

Damn, Eva suspected something. I didn't want to tell her because I didn't want any affection if it wasn't genuine or if it was out of sympathy.

Devyn and I talked a little longer until we had to leave. I dropped her home and thanked her for her time and words of wisdom, she really didn't have to.

It was dark out by the time I began my hour long drive back home. My mind kept replaying all the recent traumatic things that had happened to me:
°My parents leaving for three months
°Eva telling me she didn't love me
°My father's health

Tears began to stream down my face and I unconsciously put more force on the accelerator. One of my favorite Jamaican songs came on, one Esther introduced me  to and I decided to tweet the lyrics.

'So much problem with my so-called friends
Problems with the girl I love
Whole heap a them a say dem know Anna
Dem never know the place I was💔😭
#FirmAndStrong'

After I placed my phone between my legs and continued driving. I was a mess, it's like everything I had barricaded inside came bursting out with full force. I felt my phone buzz and it fell due to the vibration and as I leaned forward to retrieve it I heard the screeching of tires. I looked up and saw headlights coming closer and then bam! I was hit from the front. My chest hit the steering wheel and I heard the windshield shatter. I spun twice and hit my head multiple times on the driver's window then suddenly I heard nothing. I tried to get out but I was restricted by the seat belt. I closed my eyes and the next time I opened it, I was being wheeled into what seemed like an emergency room.

"Don't move ma'am, we don't know what's broken." I heard a voice say faintly. Broken??? Not a-fucking-gain. I laid back and closed my eyes.

Eva's POV

I had just finished cleaning up after dinner with my family and I went to my room. I flopped down and reached for my phone. Thirteen missed calls, most from Katie and Sab but the first two were from a strange number.

I called Katie back.

"Where the FUCK were you??" she shouted
"Eating dinner, why are you shouting? What's wrong??" I asked in a panic.
"Anna was hit by a drunk driver, she's in emergency surgery right now." she said.

I dropped my phone in shock and screamed.