First Forever (GirlxGirl)

Rearing It's Ugly Head

Anna's POV

I remained by the Jeep after Eva left. What would have happened if Lauren hadn't interrupted us? Yes, I kissed her but she walked up to me and invited me to do so with her eyes.

There was nothing more I wanted than to be with Eva. My heart, mind, body and soul craved her deeply but I didn't want to force what I wanted on her, it had to be mutual.

I pulled my hat lower into my face and strolled back to the crowd with my hands in my pockets. I passed by Eva and Lauren dancing their hearts away.

I returned to the cooler and sat down, observing the carefree actions of the pre-adults. Music allowed everyone to forget about their troubles, each pulsating beat drowned the noise of trauma, heartache, abuse, anxiety, depression and whatever else most of us had to deal with daily.

Belting out lyrics that spoke directly or indirectly, they were all letting out something. My eyes fell upon Eva and of course she was accompanied by Lauren. I wonder if Eva knew Lauren was deeply in love with her and enjoyed the attention or she was completely oblivious.

"I'm sure that cooler wasn't put there for your pleasure." a voice said behind me. I turned around and saw a dark haired girl with a scowl. Even with the scowl it didn't hide the perfect symmetry of her face. Her eyes were hazel and at that moment it reflected the fire that blazed behind me, lips shaped like the organ Eva broke two weeks ago and decorated with pink tinted gloss. She wore a black crop, a flannel draped over her shoulders, high wasted jeans that hugged her hips and white air forces.

"Oh hey sorry, my bad." I said and got up. She opened the cooler and searched for something but she kept dipping her hand in and out.

"Too cold?" I asked.

"Maybe." she muttered.

"Okay." I said.

"Well are you going to help me or watch my fingers freeze off?" she said.

"I was really content just watching you." I said. A smile appeared on her face but disappeared within seconds. She finally got what she searched for and slammed the cooler shut.

"Thank you for nothing." she said.

"Oh so you can say thank you. I thought you couldn't." I said turned around and returned to my seat on the cooler.

"I'll be back for another so don't get too comfortable." she said.

"Just say you want to see me again." I teased. She sucked her teeth and walked away which made me chuckle. It felt good to flirt with someone other than Eva, strange but good.

Eva's POV

As much as I was enjoying my self my mind couldn't get over that moment Anna and I had earlier. Lauren interrupted and I was a little glad that she did because I wasn't going to stop and neither was Anna.

"What the fuck happened back there?" Lauren finally asked as she lit up a blunt.

"I was cold." I said.

"Your body or your lips?" she said.

"Body but she did warm my lips." I said and chuckled a bit.

"Wow Eva. She's like your owner or something." she said and shook her head.

"What does that mean?" I asked firmly.

"Whatever she wants from you, she gets it. I mean she has a pretty good hold on you." she said as she blew smoke into the air.

"You don't understand. We're both equally obsessed with each other." I explained.

"Are you so sure about that?" she said and pointed in Anna's direction. I turned around and saw a girl talking to Anna which didn't bother me at all.

"What am I supposed to be looking at?" I asked.

"Eva, do you not pay attention to body language. Anna is playfully flirting with her and homegirl is eating it up." she narrated.

"By the look on her face it doesn't seem like Anna is succeeding." I said confidently.

"That's a front. She's going to walk away but   when she gets far enough from Anna she'd look back and smile." she predicted. The girl walked away, Anna returned to her seat but just as Lauren predicted when she was far enough she looked back at Anna and smiled.

"Wow." I muttered.

When we hold on to our most prized possessions we love and cherish it and most times because it is always there we take it for granted. It is only when the things we love the most begins to slip through our fingers we lose all logic and use desperation as our fuel.

"Oh look at that, she's back sooner than I expected." Lauren said as if she found joy in the situation. The girl walked back to Anna and sassily tapped on her shoulder.

Jealousy met with the alcohol in my system, nudged me in the direction of Anna. My brain argued against the direction my body moved and my heart began to set up the live band in preparation to awake the butterflies. Complete internal chaos while I walked towards the one that caused it all.

"Anna, hi." I said. She looked back and immediately abandoned her conversation, giving me all her attention.

"Hi Eva." she replied. Jealousy snickered and disappeared, leaving me in a very awkward situation.

"Uhh what are you doing?" I asked and internally face-palmed myself.

"Talking. What's up? Are you still cold or something?" she inquired genuinely.

"No I'm good, I just wanted to talk to you." I whispered. She grabbed my hand and walked us away from the party, down the coastline. When we stopped, the only thing prominently visible was the fire that sent firey babies into the air. She turned to face ocean and so did I. The movement of the water was delicate yet constant. The sand stood still waiting to be kissed by the waves every few seconds.

"What do you want from me Eva?" she asked.

"What do you mean?" I asked in return.

"What do want from me? You don't want me but it seems like you don't want anyone else to want me." she said calmly.

"That girl wanted you?" I asked.

"Not sure but I didn't get time to find out now did I?" she said.

"Were you interested in her?" I asked.

"Maybe, I don't know." she shrugged.

"I miss you." I admitted. She sighed loudly.

"You do not know what you want Eva." she said firmly. I moved in front of her and boldly put my arms around her neck.

"You can't say that. I know what I want." I said and took her hat off and placed it backward on my head.

"Eva. This is torture, you are torturing me." she whispered. She leaned forward and gently pressed our foreheads together. She interlocked her fingers around my waist and pulled me closer to her. My heart struck up a familiar tune and the butterflies in my stomach frantically put on their dancing shoes.

She separated our foreheads and connected our lips, gently caressing hers against mine. I tilted my head and slid my tongue inside her mouth. It was met with a dancing partner and they began to waltz to the music of my heart.

Suddenly she pulled away and looked at me. "What do you miss about me?" she asked.

"Everything. I miss your *moans*......" I was cut off by Anna attacking my neck. She sucked and kissed against my skin while her nails lightly dig into my skin.

My phone rang out but I ignored it. Anna continued to kiss along my neck and down my collar bone. My phone rang again.

"Answer it." Anna said against my shoulder.  I fumbled to get the phone out my pocket and unintentionally answered.

"What? Oh hey.....yeah I'm not far......already?.....Okay fine I'm coming." I said and ended the call.

Anna removed her lips from my skin and looked at me directly into my eyes. I released my grip around her neck but she held on firmly to me.

"That was Lauren, she said that they're ready." I said.

"She wants you to herself." Anna said and let go of me.