You're the only female TIE fighter pilot in the First Order.
You had natural ability. An...instinct...in the cockpit that you couldn't explain. Sometimes you just felt when and where a target was approaching. You'd had this instinct as long as you...
**TW**: NSFW!! Blood warning, fighting, things on fire, torture kind of, definitely murder in this one, NSFW, you will absolutely get fired, discussion of grooming, choking but not in the hot way, actually it's still hot who am I kidding, kylo throws us into a wall, emotional manipulation but not really anymore, emotional distress, men are assholes, WOMEN are assholes, sexual harassment jokes kind of, slightly more than problematic, force use, kylo makes us sad but also happy, we make kylo sad but also happy, this one will also have you questioning if you've ever actually loved anyone, I cried writing this one AGAIN, absolutely got chills, why do I do this to myself, this story has fucked up my life, we are in love, we kind of fight, get ready to be uncomfortable, abandonment issues, my therapist is low-key is getting into the story now and liked this chapter a lot, y/n is a baddie in this one again, she is hot af so if you're hetero you may have some BIPANIC again, at least I did, steer clear if you struggle with toxic relationships/sexual situations that come from toxicity, he continues to fuck us up emotionally, but we fuck him up emotionally, kylo and y/n may or may not be slowly loosing their minds, this one is hard emotionally but very rewarding emotionally no spoilers tho, probably some secondhand embarrassment here, definitely some daddy issues, pretty sure a praise kink is developing, there is a ton of self reflection here, but people die and we don't care, bloodlust for sure, kylo will actually come through but it is sad somehow, he is trying his best, this chapter is SPICY but the kind of spice that makes you feel things in your dead soul, it will probably awaken emotions inside of you, after reading this one your normal life will never be enough sorry, you may want to delete your ex's number before reading this, put your phone on airplane mode for your own good, don't text them, they will never be kylo, prepare to cry, grab your squishmallows and please drink water...
AN: *This chapter really should've been two. It is literally 16,000 words. I thought about splitting it up, but you guys have been so patient with me over the past few weeks, I decided to give you an extra special surprise and finish it as one big one! This one is THE MOST IMPORTANT one for Kylo up to this point. This is really the culmination of his character development and we finally get a look at his overall motivations/feelings.
**There will be multiple POV changes in this chapter! Please pay attention to the headers.
***The song for this chapter (only the second half really) is... 'Bound to You' by Christina Aguilera (from the Burlesque soundtrack). This song really hits for the last part of the chapter when they are on the ship. I promise if you listen to it during/after you finish reading that part you will cry.
IMPORTANT: If you're watching my movie without the score, you're doing yourself a huge injustice. The soundtrack for this book is on Spotify! This is the link. It is also posted on my page a little ways down, under "Conversations"
****LASTLY: you may need this photo for.....inspiration.....no spoilers tho. If you don't like this picture, think Black Widow but make it First Order. ;) *graphic photo creds: Automatan, from Deviantart
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