Vent

fade

is this where time stands still
the echoing chamber of lies and wishes
swimming birds and flying fishes

is this the place I've felt in my dreams
am I an intruder in these lands
if I am, why does this landscape
speak my name in the winds

is this the place my emotions are born
why does the air feel frozen
shouldn't there be light, life and love
where once stood is now a barren pit,
stripped of its meaning.
stolen profanity.

the way in is easy
the way down is far.
the way out is gone
so what do I do
how do I leave this room with the whispers in the walls
with the eyes in the window frames

do I meld into the walls of my center
let the murals and music drown my sorrow,
stuck in the same sad pose
begging
pleading
screaming
for anything to free me from this limbo

I tell myself it could be different
i think that I'm finally passing through and suddenly
I'm beckoned back into the cathartic cathedral
to fade into the darkness of my pain
that refuses to vacate the cavity in my chest