Sext Me [LiLo]

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harry: hey?

zayn: harry hey

zayn: thank god you're replying haha

zayn: how are you? hope you must have thought about forgiving me

harry: i'm alright, thanks zayn

harry: and yeah, about that

zayn: yeah?

harry: i guess i should apologize too because i was acting like a selfish ass and didn't see it from your point

zayn: no harry dont blame yourself for fuçk sake

harry: stop typing! let me finish

harry: yeah you hurt me and was such a wanker when i told you about my feelings but you were also being defensive and was confused with everything. i thought you were just doing it intentionally but i know you're not that bad zayn

harry: i know your last relationship with a guy didn't end well and still i said everything i did so i'm sorry

zayn: wow harry, thank you for seeing it like i do :) and yeah, its has been so difficult for me but i'm trying my very best! all that i did was because i'm still coping with my emotions and also because i wanted to protect you

zayn: but it was both our faults i guess. mine more. i'd been such an asshole at the start, trying to make this all go away and wow

harry: yeah louis was right. thanks for accepting your mistake too zayn, one of the many things i like about you

zayn: harry?

harry: yeah, i like a lot of things about you zayn. but the stack of things i hate about you is just a smidge shorter than the good one

zayn: very comforting haha

harry: but what do you mean by protect me?

zayn: i feel something different for you harry, i admit it now

zayn: the reason i'm just really careful and conflicted about this is because you're the first guy i've had feelings for after years

harry: so you admit it. you do have feelings for me?

zayn: i was skeptical because of last time but now i'm not gonna hurt you and be honest

zayn: so yes harry i have a huge crush on my best friend and cant stop thinking about him

harry: on louis???

zayn: you're kidding, right?

zayn: on you, idiot!

harry: zayn

harry: oh my god

harry: i knew that

zayn: my last relationship ended because i thought i was gay or even bi but just a while later, there was nothing there. i dont want a repeat of last time harry, i dont want to hurt you like i hurt dylan. i wont ever forgive myself

zayn: thats why i was so shocked and frazzled when you told me about your feelings and i handled them and then my own emotions in the worst way, i really am sorry

harry: but what if you're still unsure? you'll un-gay yourself or something again?

zayn: no. this time i'm really sure and i dont think that'll happen

harry: where's dylan now?

zayn: we talk very ocassionally. the bloke's too nice. offered to stay friends even though i broke his heart !

harry: you did. but you also did the right thing in breaking up with him. staying with him would have been painful for both of you

zayn: yeah you're right harry

zayn: you're still talking to niall?

harry: uh yeah.. what has niall got to do with this?

zayn: nothing, just asking

harry: well yeah he's my team mate and a really nice lad. he's really funny

zayn: i dont like him idk why. just a weird vibe

harry: a weird vibe from niall? wow

zayn: i'm not saying that you should stop talking to him

harry: good because you have no right to tell me that

harry: but awh you're so jealous

zayn: i sure as hell am not jealous of that scrawny fake blonde

harry: you are so cute hah

harry: and i forgive you. louis is right yet again. we're both being hard headed and wont get anything solved this way.

zayn: yeah he's right. so we've both said sorry and now know of the other's feelings so thats a good start

harry: yeah. i want to talk to you in person now, really soon

zayn: oh? whats the hurry hah? ;)

harry: hah just want to talk this all out

zayn: see you in an hour then

harry: but there's the track race after school today?

zayn: fuçk it! i want to talk to you the second i get out of this hellhole

zayn: alright?

harry: that was so hot

zayn: well i try hah

harry: louis will be pissed that we wont be watching liam's race with him xD

zayn: i dont think he'll even notice if we'll be there or not

harry: haha true! but we just have to talk yeah?

zayn: yep, just talk

harry: right, i see

zayn: yep. see you in an hour :)

harry: see you then :)

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turns out i'm even more stupid than our lewis or leeyum here lmao. i asked y'all to guess my age when it's the first thing written about me in my bio *facepalms* *cries at my awkwardness*

#ZarryMeeting if you cant wait for the hot, sexy, stupid and jealous idiots in love to talk it (make) out again ❤

almost 30K votes, holy fooking sheet! Sext Me is officially my most highest rated book! tysm guys i'm so numb rn :')

#QOTC: which boy do you ship the most with zayn? :D (me, zarry. then zouis)

-R