Sana Pwede Pa

Kabanata 22

"What is it, Dominic? Why did you made a scene and lied to our Professor?"

Whoa. You might think I'm getting brave now but I swear, that is not the case. I'm acting tough here when in fact I'm wishing myself to vanish.

"I need to talk to you, Sab. Actually, I should've talk to you yesterday but then I was too coward. Now I shouldn't waste my time anymore and say what I want to say to you."

I saw him took a deep breath then continued talking, "I'm sorry. I'm really sorry, Sab. I know I have a fault back in Boracay. You were too drunk but then I took advantage of you. I swear, hindi ako makatulog ng gabing 'yon. I also admit that I wish you were not able to remember what happened that night but when you started avoiding me, I realized you did really remembered that and that made me embarrass even more."

Oh no. So he really think I was really drunk that night that I can't control my actions?

"You were drunk, Sab, and I took advantage of that. I was supposed to stopped you but then I did not. That thought disgusts me. I feel like I am not a real man for doing that. I'm really sorry. I know you have the right to feel mad because of what I did so it's okay if you'll avoid me this time. Just don't cut our friendship please. And I hope you can still forgive me."

Oh God, what did I even do in my past life to have a friend like Dominic? He is apologizing for something he has no mistake at all because I do admit it, I was all conscious when I did the kiss and I felt good when he kissed back. Tsk. Blame my wild hormones.

"No, Dom," ang tanging nasagot ko sa kaniya.

His forehead creased out of confusion.

Now I think I need to explain what I meant with that 'no'.

"I mean, I don't need to avoid you for too long. You said sorry now and I know you're sincere with that apology. Alam ko din namang hindi ka ganiyang klaseng lalaki e. We're good now, Dom. I'm also sorry if may nagawa din akong mali sa 'yo."

And yes, I chose to lie. I chose to let him think that I'm really drunk that night and that I barely remembered everything that had happened.

I just feel like that's my best option right now. If I go with the other option and say that I somehow like what had happened, he'll think I like him and if Michael was right with what he said, Dominic might think he has a chance with me. Or if that's not the case, he'll think I'm too bad for flirting with a friend. Eitherway, our friendship would be affected so I'm choosing this one.

"No, Sab. Wala kang kasalanan. It's all on me. I'm really sorry. I know that may affect on how you view me but I am really really sorry, Sab."

No, Dom. Ako pa nga ang nahihiya sa sitwasyon natin ngayon. You keep on saying sorry eventhough you do not owe me one.

"Dom, it's alright. Let's just forget about what happened. Let's just act as if that never happened and we'll just continue with our life. Let's talk and hangout as if nothing happened."

Ewan ko pero napansin kong natigilan ata siya nang marinig niya ang sinabi ko.

"Dom?" tanong ko sa kaniya kaya agad siyang nagsalita. "Yeah... Y-yeah. That's... the best we can do right now, but know that I'm really really sorry, Sab."

"Dom, it's fine now. I already forgave you. Let's just... let's just forget about it."

Tumango lang siya pagkatapos ay nagtanong uli sa 'kin kahit parang nahihiya pa, "Wanna go to the cafeteria?"

"Huh? Why? We still have a class."

"Nahihiya na akong bumalik don."

Hindi agad naproseso ng utak ko ang sinabi niya kaya natigilan ako.