Not my fault,My fate

Chapter Thirty-three

Theme: Surgery

🤗👨 ADRIAN'S POV😊🤧

  She's finally awake!!!! She moved a finger finally....  I can't describe how happy I am right now,I felt this leap of joy in me like an organ in my body started working right. My one true love finally came back to life.... I bless the heavens,for the first time I went on my knees to thank God for answering my prayers.

  
  As I was on my knees by Tania's bedside with her hands in mine. The Doctors and nurses rushed into the ward,with some medical equipment and started fixing it and running the pipes into her. They told me to excuse her for a while and I stood to leave the ward, Tania had not opened her eyes yet but she had started to make slow movements.... It was enough hope for me.

 
😷🏥 TANIA'S POV🤕🤒

Slowly as I was drawn into the real world, I could feel the presence of people all over the place. I remember I've been in this same situation before..... It was 5years ago after the life-changing accident,I woke up in the ward and felt the presence of people around me but I was little then so all my thoughts then was to see my family.

  I promise myself and my late sister that after I get out of this condition, I won't go back to my negative thinking self anymore,I'll seek forgiveness from whoever I've acted thoughtless to. I'll start to look on the bright sides on all things and learn to be happy,now I know there's more to life than meets the eye and being a cancer patient is not the end of the world.

  I hope I scale through though, i slowly opened my eyes and the light in the ward stroke through. I felt my body was different, I was going to have a haircut because my hair felt scanty enough. I had lost excess weight and I felt really weak. The Doctor asked me some questions relating to how I was feeling and there you have it...... I felt different. He told me I was in stage 3 and it got critical because I wasn't treating the disease,he said lots of soothing words and told me to hang in there and that I'll be fine.

I was going In for Surgery__ A Bone Marrow Transplant. After three days of staying conscious, I have to eat solid substance and take in some other medication before the day of the surgery. Before the Doctor left,I asked one question.

  "Is it really sure that I'd be alive after the surgery?" I struggled to say

  "Well you are asking for the survival rate of the transplant,it is isn't really high and considering the stage you are in.... Its going to be 50/50. We pray complications don't arise during the surgery......"

  "What if complications arise?" I asked with a nervous voice.

  "We pray it doesn't ma'am.... We will try our possible best not to allow the odds happen.... Take your rest now" And the Doctor said as he adjusted my pillow and took his leave.

  Doctors and giving hope are like 5&6..... They won't be candid and true with words to the patient, instead they'll tell your guardians the real thing and my guardians are never going to tell me the odds that will happen after surgery so I'm just gonna look at the bright side as Tonia had said.

  As the Doctor left with his entourage, my parents came in along with Adrian and one other person, I didn't get to see the view at the back properly. My Mum rushed to hug me with a eyes filled with tears,I've not really been fair to my mum and right now I know she's taking all the blame for my carelessness.

  "I'm sorry mum......." I said gently as each word hurt to say.

  "No no.... Don't be honey,its not your fault, none of this is..... I'm sorry you have to go through this pain over again,I'm really sorry honey" Mum said as she cried.

  Dad stood behind mum as he struggled to be strong as a man but I knew my Dad too well,he was going to breakdown if he came closer. I stretched my hands towards his and he took my hand as he came closer to my bed.

  "Hey Dad! Don't be sad.... The doctor said I'll be fine"

  "Yes you definitely will,princess" He said as he snorted his nose trying to hold back his tears

  "I love you guys...... Don't make sad faces,I promise I'll be fine"

  "We love you too honey" Mum said.

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  I was in my second home__ The Hospital. Trust me its not a place to be proud of but when you have always stayed in the hospital for half of your life,I guess you start to find peace within the walls. Technically the hospital is full of medicine smell and debit alerts,every drop of liquid passed into my body and even the sickbed I'm on are been paid for everyday.

  It was getting late and everyone started leaving,Hailey also came__she was the one I couldn't see properly then. When they all left,Adrian came in..... He did not look too happy and his eyes were a bit swollen. He came to sit beside me and tried to smile, I'm sure something was wrong.... Was it his Dad?

  "Hey!" He said.

  "Hi!!" I replied.

  "I'm so happy you are finally awake.... I ..... I..... Was scared for a moment"

  " Why were you scared?"

  "The thought of losing you scared me,I don't know if this is the right time to say this__but you hold a really special place in my heart and you are the last person I ever want to lose "

  "Do you ..... Do you by chance.... Have feelings for me??!!" I asked as I was even nervous to hear his answer.

  "That's a very specific question.... But uhm.... I heard about your illness today.... I was really shocked and hurt to be the last person who knows. I heard you are in the critical stage and you are going to undergo surgery"

  "Yes.... The surgery's in three days"

  "You will be fine and you'll scale through" Adrian said as he held my hand and kissed it.

  "But you didn't answer my question.... Do you have feelings for me??