Not my fault,My fate

Chapter Seventeen

Theme:Broken💔

😣😥  TANIA'S POV😣😥

  I was sober all noon after i got home ,i wasn't myself and i felt really bad with how I replied Adrian. I couldn't help but feel he was messing with me,I hate to admit I like him but he doesn't know and probably shouldn't cos he's someone else's boyfriend.

   No matter how mad and bothered I am,i should have given him a chance to say what he wanted to say. After all he wanted to tell me something but from the way he relayed the message,it sounded more like he didn't consider my feelings. Sometimes I feel i don't deserve to be happy,the one person I loved the most in the entire universe was taken away from me and now I'm starting to find love in a special place and that special place is been owned by Miss Popular in school,I wonder what life even has for me,is there love out there for me?

   I hate my life,i hate that i was born.........i hate that with all I have to face,the universe decided to give me cancer like its not enough. What is my essence?

   As i was deep in thoughts,i burst out crying, i couldn't help it and I poured out my whole pain on my pillow. And then it caught me, i cried so much that i had difficulty in breathing but I knew it wasn't the tears,it was my condition acting up. I found it hard to breathe and blood was dropping from my nose,I completely lost it as I struggled to move in my room. I started searching for my pills where I hid it with the tiny strength in me but then I found the bottle of pills but with no pills inside then it got to me that I flushed it all down the toilet when I lied to my Mom that I took them.

   My vision became blur and everything became so dark,I don't remember the last thing that happened but i dropped on the floor and passed out.

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   I opened my eyes slowly and felt this terrible migraine but i could breathe better this time. I inhaled this hospital smell around me,i hope i wasn't in the hospital,i hate that place!

    I opened my eyes brightly and saw i was in my room but I was collecting treatment with the drip stand and other medical tools by my bedside. I looked around and sighed, i must have been really knocked off for me to be on bed rest.

   A knock was on my door and before I could ask who was there,my brother came in and sat beside me.

   "Hey Monkey,how you feelin??" Chase asked as he brushed my hair to the  side with his hand.

   "I'm better__thanks Chase"

  "I found this on the floor, if your pills are finished,you should tell mom and dad to get another right away. You shouldn't stay without your pills for a day,not even for too long,its risky" Chase said as he held the empty bottle of my pills in his hand.

   "I know, don't tell mum or dad that you found that on the floor,they'd be mad that I did not dispose the bottle off properly"

   "Are you sure that's why they'd get angry or there's something else you are not telling me?!" Chase asked with his brows up like I was hiding something which i was  but he acted like he knew something was up well he's always that inquisitive especially when it comes to me.

   "There's nothing to tell Chase,go get your head in the cloud somewhere else__I'm hungry!"

    "I'll get you breakfast ......(as he was about to leave then he turns back) Dad said checkup is this Saturday,get ready and yes__Tania,i hope you know how much i love you and I can't afford to lose you not in this life.....so don't try anything stupid!"

   "I won't!!....... Get out!"

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I guess I'm gonna be home today,Hailey's going to be so worried. Speaking of which,let me check her up in my chatroom. While scrolling through my phone, I heard noise downstairs and it was like people were fighting,i tried to look away but it got louder so i decided to leave my bed and check out the  window, what I saw broke me💔

    It was Adrian and his Dad,they were throwing punches at each other and hitting themselves against the ground. I couldn't bare to see Adrian get hurt and I couldn't hold myself with what I was seeing. I removed the drip syringe in my hand and ran out of the house like thunder bolt.

   "You are nothing but a loser!!! And that's the reason she left you!!" Adrian shouted.

   "Don't you use that tone on me Adrian,don't you dare!!!" His Dad shouted.

   "Or what are you gonna do uhn,throw more punches?!!.....I'm in for it,do your worse!!" Adrian said with a rage.

    "Shut the f*ck up assh*le!!" His Dad shouted.

   "I said do your worse,Jerk face!!!"

And on the spot,Adrian's dad pounced on him and they engaged in a fist fight like teens going through puberty. It was an ugly scene and I couldn't bare to see Adrian get hurt so I ran to stop him.

   "Adrian,stop!!" I said as I held onto him and stopped him from fighting. I almost fell to the ground as I got in between their fight.

    "What the hell are you doing outside?!!" Chase shouted as he got out of the house.

  Adrian got on his bicycle and rode off,I on the other hand ran inside then Chase followed.

   "What has gotten into you??!! Why are you taking such a risk when you are not feeling well?!!" Chase asked in rage.

   "I'm sorry!" That was all I could say as I ran up the stairs into my room.

  I locked myself up in my room as I bursted into tears. Could things be more worse,I hurt him with my words yesterday and today his Dad turns his face into a soccer field,this is cruel. I just laid in bed and drenched my pillow in tears,i felt broken.