Bastard

5/16/21

    Blessings to all.

    I have returned back home, leaving my sisters before planned.
When I received the call that shook me to my core and rattled me bones, I had no idea I'd have to deal with some other basic bullshit that popped up right afterwards.  My daughter, along with her mother and family, were involved in a freak accident, and miraculously, they all survived.

    When Semaj called me and told me what had happened, I immediately felt for Damiana's energy. I could feel the family's anxiety as a collective. She assured me everyone was okay, but still I worried. I was debating whether I should drop everything and leave when of course, some bullshit came traipsing my way. 

   More shit. To fuck with me.

   I said fuck it, and chose what was most important. I called for a fill-in for the band, kissed my sisters goodbye and got the fuck outta Dodge to go see about my family.

    Yes, my family.

   I surprised them when I pulled up to the house. They were not expecting me. After hugging Semaj and giving her husband a hand shake, I went to see the children. I had to see all of them, and when I scooped up my little Damiana, and she looked at me with those chocolate eyes, I cried and cried. I cried so much I made the kids cry, and that made me feel bad.

   I explained to them that I loved them all and I was crying bcuz I was happy they were all okay. They told me they understood, but were sad about the van, bcuz they really liked it. I told them not to worry; that I was gonna fix everything. They thanked me, hugging me tight. Even Damiana smiled.

   Yesterday was a fucking goddamned miserable shit ass fucking day, all the way. I stubbornly gave into letting my sister Ruby give me the message she so wanted to give me, and apparently it was so complex, we were supposed to continue it later in the day. She told me many things, a plethora of things. But due to circumstances, I left before she could finish.

   Mona Lisa has been ringing me up, constantly wanting the latest updates and making sure my mental is well. She says she wants me to take a breather and wait for her to come down. She's decided to come early for her visit. I kinda wanted to have a better place before she'd come. She told me not to worry.

   Coming home to my babies and fur babies is so good bcuz I really missed them. After unpacking I immediately got to it, calling places and ordering what the van needs to come back to rights. I can't leave my family hanging like that.

   I'm so ready to have access to Bria soon. I did go over to Taz's  to see my baby girl and to speak to Daenarick. I need everyone to come to some sort of impasse bcuz I'm tired of the shit. Of course Taz is still heated up about Shantrelle and vice versa. I even stopped by to see how Shantrelle was doing. She had plenty to say about the matter. She told me our sun just won't listen to her and doesn't want to be bothered. I said join the club.