Bastard

5/26/21

   I would like to take time out to thank anyone still with me, respectively.

   I am proud and grateful to announce that I have another child on the way and I'm thrilled. Ecstatic. I'm happy. I have the woman I love and she's pregnant with my seed. I never thought it would happen again, that's why I'm so grateful and happy.

   Yet, as of late, my happiness seems to be souring others. I seem to be losing friends but oh well. There have been verbal exchanges on social media, on here, just coming from out of thin air.

  Lots of things have been thrown and said to my Semaj, and as hot and hard headed as she is, I wish her not to reply again. It's too much being said and it's obviously for her discomfort. I will not allow her to stress over any anonymous delusions. Trust me when I say she is laying here in my bed right now as I write, resting.

   The messages and insinuations are getting out of hand, from all ways. The female that popped in out of nowhere has actually been stalking me for a while now. She's admitted to doing some pretty fucked up shit and I don't like the fact that this person sat outside of my residence last night.

  I don't know why this female picked now to reveal her antics but frankly it's pissing me off, and if I catch her ass outside tonight she will get dealt with. My dear sister has come thru and although she and Semaj haven't always been close, she is down to handle this female in her honor.

  Mona Lisa was speechless when we told her the news of the baby. I saw a lot of emotion in my sister these past few weeks. She hugged me tightly and cried after Semaj went to bed.

   It's been brought to my attention that certain "forces" were planning to do my love and myself harm, probably during this blood moon. I fucking dare them to try. This blood moon is in Sagittarius, and Semaj and I are both this fire sign. I will never let any harm come to my woman or our unborn child, so tonight I conjure. Let's see how powerful these "forces" are. Should they infiltrate my barrier I promise this one thing: I will not rest until any malicious energies be returned. I promise you that.

   I'm tired of carrying all these feelings. I'm tired of the threats and accusations. I'm tired of the assumptions. Fuck with my woman or my unborn child and I will make you pay for the trouble. I promise you that.

    I hope everyone can have better days, and be grateful for what they have. Tomorrow isn't promised to us. We should be making the most of our time here. Not doing dumb shit, like putting your nose in this business simply bcuz you think you're doing your friend a service. Let's see how powerful you two think you are.

   Semaj has never done anything to anyone save for me, and I don't have a problem with her so no one else should. I need the back and forth to stop. She's a loaded pistol right now and with everything going on, she is stressing out. I can't have that. She can feel the hatred being directed her way and I for one think it's sad. It's fucking sad bcuz she should be on top of the world right now, not reading bullshit on here.

   Anyone who knows me knows I go hard when it comes to my offspring. My sun and my two daughters are my world, and this little nugget-to-be shall be my heart as well.

   I love being a father and being able to be a hands on dad. So much in fact, Semaj doesn't have to get out of bed. I care for Bria and our Damiana just fine on my own, and now that Mona Lisa is here she wants to help with the babies, but I got it. What I need from her is to be a two piece wonder and knock this stalking bitch out for me.

   How sickening it is to know the extremes people are willing to go to for trouble. This girl openly admitted to basic stalking, and now she is doing the most. I for one don't want to deal with her, bcuz my mind is on protecting my baby and our baby. My boss has even called to say that this female showed up at my job today, only I've taken some time off to be with Semaj and my family. I don't understand what this girl is trying to achieve.

  Over the course of this week I've lost friends, connections, and comraderie. All bcuz I chose the woman I've longed for most of my life. I'm saddened by the lost but seems like as long as I was lost and down, and wanting to end myself everyone loved me.  Now, seeing how many congratulations I received (1) I guess my good news isn't great to others. I do not give a fuck.

  I wish blessings upon all. But mark my words: if anything happens to Semaj or my unborn child I shall release a vengeance upon those responsible.