Myelle
It took me another day to be okay. Mula nung magkagulo, nagstay lang kami dito sa hotel. Pero sabi nga ni Adam, hindi namin matatakbuhan ito, kaya kahit ayoko, dumating na rin ako sa point na madidisappoint ko si Daddy. Na maheheartbroken sila ni Mommy dahil sa akin.
"Andito na tayo. Ready ka na?"
"I nodded."
"Andito lang ako ha?"
"Thank you Adam. Love you."
"Love you more."
I smiled at him. After more than 3 years, sa wakas ay naging ready na akong ipagtapat ang lahat sa pamilya ko.
Adam carried our Evan. Tulog na tulog kasi sya.
"Halika na?"
I nodded.
"Myelle? Kanina ka pa hinihintay ni Mommy. Pasok kayo."
"Mommy! Andito na po si Myelle tsaka Adam."
We saw Daddy seating firmly on the sofa. While Mom's seating beside him. Andito din si Ate Ysa at Kuya Theo.
Evan woke up and saw Lolo Daddy and Lola Mommy na agad nyang nilapitan at niyakap. My father dearly hugged Evan, pinaghahalikan naman sya ni Mommy.
"Ada, take Evan and the kids with you. Stay in the room."
"Anubayan di na naman ako kasali."
"Ada!"
"Paakyat na nga po kami. Lika na baby, dami toys dun ni Nanang."
When Ada and the kids were all up, Ate started questioning.
"Myelle, bakit sinasabi ni Mark na may anak kayo? Bakit ganoon sya kasigurado?"
I took a deep breath.
"Because 3 years ago, Mark really got me pregnant."
"Ha? Anak..."
"I'm so sorry Mommy, I am so sorry Daddy. I quit medicine not because I want to do business. I quit medicine because Mark got me pregnant."
My tears fall generously. It's so painful to recall the darkest days of my life.
"I choose to stop because I don't want to disappoint you again. I know you've had enough and making me disappoint you Daddy will break your heart even more."
"If you got pregnant, then where's the baby?"
Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko, I cry and cry and cry. Halos hindi ako makapagsalita sa nararamdaman kong sakit. This is what I am too afraid of. This is what I don't want to happen, tell them that I lost my precious one. Akala ko ready na ako, akala ko, okay na ako. Pero ibubuka ko pa lang ang bibig ko hirap na hirap na ako. In the end the only word I got to say is
"Sorry, sorry."
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Adam
I was just beside my wife while she was trying her best to tell her family what happened. When they asked where's the baby, Myelle cried so hard and fell unconscious.
"Myelle, Myelle."
"Dalahin natin sa kwarto."
"She was crying since Evan's birthday."
Ate Ysa sighed.
"Myelle's okay. Sa tingin ko she's just too exhausted."
I looked at my wife.
