Angel eyes - George Weasley X Reader

part 57

' hello my love,

how are you? i miss you. hope everything is okay with the shop?, opening day must have been busy, especially after the half-term with the students coming in again. you guys are brilliant, i'm sure you all did a great job. things are good here, snape now teaches defence against the dark arts as there's a new potions teacher, professor slughorn. he was teaching when dad was a student here with mr and mrs potter and remus. he taught your mum and dad too! 

i never realised how much i missed being here, it's different now without you, fred and lee. this first week has been okay, i'm sorry i haven't written earlier but i never thought teaching in a school of magic would be so... non-magical? i don't even know if that makes sense but i can't think of any other way to put it right now. i've never seen so much parchment on a desk, let alone marking it all! it's weird being back and teaching, instead of being the one who's getting taught. 

you should apparate down to hogsmeade one weekend! fred and lee too! it would be great to see you guys again soon. we can go for a drink in the three broomsticks and have a day together there, just like our old school times. 

harry's up to no good again but ron and hermione disagree with him for once. he's under the impression that draco is a death eater. i called him crazy and ron, i quote, said " you're barking! why would you know who want a sod like malfoy? ". it was a little harsh but i can understand it after what we've seen over the years, can't you? 

my heart is always with you, as is my soul. i'm counting down the days until i see you again. i can't wait to be back home, in your arms; your scent filling my nose and intoxicating me. you're heavenly- everything about you is. the way the sun lights up your eyes and brightens your freckles in the early hours of sunrise in the morning, the way your smile could be the sun in any dull and rainy day, the way your presence is enough to shift the energy in a room from miserable to alive. you're a version of heaven, my version. 

my heart always aches for you, even when i'm right next to you- but i wouldn't have it ache for anyone else, even if i had a choice. if you get lonely, look up at the stars- i'll be looking up there with you; at the same stars, under the same night sky.

i will see you soon, my darling love,

i love you- so so much.

- y/n '

fred's pov

i'm sat at the table in the flat with lee when george came out his room, holding a letter. " this just came, it's from y/n " he grumbled tiredly, sitting himself on the sofa. " how do you know? you haven't opened it " lee asked. " the handwriting on the front, it's y/n's. i know her curly letters and her slanted words. she writes in italics " he smiled as he carefully opened the envelope and unfolded the paper, scared he was going to tear it and ruin her beautiful writing. he began reading it out loud to us, as well as himself. of course she started it talking about us first, she's so selfless. she puts anyone and everyone abover herself without hesitation. she's wonderful like that. 

my brothers voice began shaking as he continued reading. " it's different here without you, fred and lee. this- sorry um- ". " mate, it's okay. take your time " i said reassuringly as he sniffled and wiped his nose on the back of his hand. he took a deep breath and carried on reading aloud to us. " my hea- my heart is always with you- fuck " he mumbled, his cursing going higher than his reading as he let himself fall back against the sofa and rubbed his hands over his face. i looked at lee with a sympathetic look and got up to walk over to him. i sat down next to him and took the paper. " can i? " i asked softly as he nodded. i began reading where he stopped and started feeling emotional too. i felt a tug on my heart as i read the last couple of lines and george's body shook and quiet sobs escaped his lips as he covered his face. " y/n really idolises you " lee whispered as he joined us on the sofa. " i idolise her too, more than she realises. god, i love her so much it physically hurts sometimes, you know? this sounds so cliché and cheesy but i do not care at all in this moment of time because i honestly cannot see myself with anyone else besides her. she's my rock ". 

lee and i managed to calm him down and he wasn't crying as much now and his hands were not covering his face. it was at this moment that i realised just how tired he looked. the bags under his eyes were deeply purple and blue, his skin was pale and he had forehead lines from his constant and subconscious frowning. " are you alright? you look like you haven't slept in days " i chuckled, not thinking anything of it. " because i haven't " he groaned, rubbing his bottom lip with his finger. " shit, what? why? ". " no its alright, it's fucking stupid and pathetic ". " come on, we want to help " lee pushed. " i've- " he sighed before continuing. " i've been having nightmares. about y/n leaving me, leaving us ". " she wouldn't do that " i soothed. " i know, i know but they still happen. they're always based off of the same thing- she's at hogwarts and she forgets about us and falls in love with someone else, i have no idea who he is but i've seen him in the shop before, and she always ends up leaving us and going with him and then that's when i wake up sweating " he explained, ashamed. 

" it's fucking stupid, i know ". " bro, that's not stupid! i understand ". " it's just so weird sleeping in an empty bed. it- it's like when she's there, next to me, she's a stopper for the dreams and i know she hasn't left me and she's safe because she's right there- in my arms but when she's away, i have no control over what happens to her or her safety and there's always that possibility of the ' what if ' " he sniffled as i felt my heart ache and my stomach turn. " alright shut up, you're making me emotional again now " i said as we all chuckled. " i didn't even sleep last night, i refused to see her face telling me she doesn't love me anymore and- she doesn't want me " his lip quivered as george shut his eyes tightly, trying to get the images out of his mind. i pulled him into a brotherly hug as his strong build was weakening in my arms. "  what has she said about it? " lee asked, rubbing his back. " oh, she has no idea " he replied, releasing a deep, shaky breath.