Maid For Him

Chapter 58

Reese***

My phone rang just like I expected it to. Since I dropped the charges, Rickel has called me once every two hours of every day.

As usual I watched the phone ring until it stopped. I crossed my fingers hoping he would leave a voice message this time but he didn't. Couldn't he at least send a text like a normal person?

I wanted to know where his head was, what he was thinking and if he hates me now. I can't imagine what he might be going through at work now. There has got to be some discrimination from his deep pocket colleagues and it was all because of me.

"Mommy cornflakes?" Amir looked up at me with those adoring eyes.

"Mommy has to go shopping." I picked him up then took up my purse and car keys.

I really needed to get a job. I had to be spending money and none of it was being replaced.....well except the money Rickel was paying me to be his pretend girlfriend. I received a payment last week and maybe that was the last one. Perhaps Rickel didn't remember to cancel it?

I drove up to Wal-Mart and as soon as we arrived, Amir was jumping up and down begging me to buy him ice-cream. I chuckled. If I didn't watch what I give him to eat, sooner or later he's going to resemble my chubby grandfather.

"We have to get groceries first. We'll get ice cream afterwards ok Papi?"

"Yes mommy." He clapped gleefully and I had to fight back tears. Mrs. Francis had done such a good job at raising him for me. I hope some day I will be able to thank her properly.

I strolled through the supermarket with Amir riding in the trolley. He was enjoying himself with not a care in the world. I kissed him on the forehead.

"I love you baby."

"I love you mommy. One more! One more!" He pointed to his plump cheek for me to kiss him there too, then to the other cheek. He giggled when I showered his entire face with small kisses.

"Stop mommy!" He laughed. "My face is full!"

He was so damn adorable. How could such a bad situation produce something so beautiful? Amir made me so happy I got raped that night. It's such a weird thing. 

As I wheeled the grocery up to the cashier, something caught my eye.

Help wanted.

This was perfect. If I got a job here it could help with my expenses. While cashing, I asked the teller about the job and she directed me to the manager. An hour later I was walking out of Wal-Mart with a job. I was to start the following Monday. This was the perfect place to work. I didn't have to worry about running into Rickel or his mom. They would never shop here. 

I got a text from Gaby saying that she's coming over as soon as she leaves work and she wants chilli for dinner.

I smiled at her text. I'm going to make her the best chilli then ask her to babysit sometimes when I have to work night shifts.

I gave Amir a bath and tucked him in just as Gaby arrived. After eating dinner, we retired to the living room and I opened a bottle of champagne.

"Hmmmm......you're living large aren't you?" She held up her glass for me to pour more into it.

I hissed my teeth. "It's a very cheap bottle. Nothing fancy."

She laughed as we drank together. Just then my phone rang for the hour mark and I ignored it.

"I take it you've told Rickel about Amir?"

I sighed. "No. I haven't. I'm waiting for the right time."

"Looks like that time will never come. What are you going to do when Amir starts asking who is father is? Just answer the phone and hear him out."

I stood up and walked to the window. "Gaby, you don't understand. I had the man jailed! I have been living with him for so many months and I didn't tell him I had a child by him. I can't just spring a baby on him now, out of the blue."

Gaby tried her best to convince me that Rickel didn't hate me now, but she was doing a terrible job at it. There's no way he had forgiven me, at least not so easily.

I smiled. "I got hired at Wal-Mart today and guess what? You are going to babysit for me when I work nights."

Gaby smirked. "I'll babysit on one condition. You'll have to tell Rickel he has a son by the end of this week."

I rolled my eyes at her. "Deal."

"I'm serious Reese."

"I'm serious too. I'm going to tell him. I just need to think of a way."

"You better hurry. Good men are hard to find."

After Gaby left, I spent most of the night coming up with ways to tell Rickel about Amir. On a second note, my own family and friends don't know about him either. Why was I hiding this sweet little gift from the world?

Why should I care what anybody thinks? So what if I got pregnant out of wedlock? So what if he came about because of rape? None of that matters. He was here and I was very happy he was.

"I love you Papi." I whispered as I wrapped my arms around him that night and pulled him closer to me.

I had the second bedroom set up for him but I couldn't bare the thought of him sleeping so far away from me. I've already lost two years with him.

And so has Rickel.....

I grunted as the thought came to me. Now I was starting to feel like an awful person. I'm going to bring Amir over to Rickel's house as early as I can tomorrow. We could get this over with before he leaves for work. Even if he hates me, in the back of my mind I was hoping he wouldn't hate his own son.