Fight for us

A flirt

Ellie pov

Waking up to the first degree lecture wasn't some thing I was looking forward to, first lecture I got was from my mother and then my brothers, and then finally the chief came into the room and gave me a lecture. They all made sure I was ok before giving me a piece of there mind but they all know I'm train its why the chief lecture wasn't so bad compares to my mothers but my mother is someone you don't want to cross even if its only a minor fault. Laying in the hospital bed I sent everyone home needing a second to breath without having everyone around me suffocating me, they are keeping me here one more day before sending me home but right now I just want my discharge papers and be on my Mary way however I think my mother scared the nurse into keeping me another day, my mother definitely has a way with words and wouldn't stop till she had her own way, and this time she did. Trying not to think about everything I look out the window enjoying the view that I have, no thanks to me knowing a certain person. As my mind drift I think about my son and how he got caught in the fire, he knows better than anyone after being raised by two fire fighters.

"How about a shower?" I hear bringing my attention to him then on my thoughts about my son but as I look at archer who's standing at the door I cant help but think about taking him up on the offer, he looks good in those scrubs which I would never tell him as he already has enough of a big ego. Mr. good looking er doctor looks good standing there with his offer however I know he's joking but his grin on his face says otherwise and if I was looking for a rebound he would be the first on my list but my ex husband is still on my mind, I know he would want me to move on and be happy and I will eventually but not right now. Looking at the doctor maybe a little flirting doesn't harm anyone, especially with him.

"You offering?" I ask wondering if I'm calling buff on his questions but he would totally follow though with it leaving me with a red face. Sliding myself up on the bed I make sure to keep eye contact with him, I'm not hundred per cent sure what he's playing at but I will definitely be finding out one way or another.

"Depends if you're interested" he throws me a wink before taking a seat on my bed, I don't know whats happening right now but I know I don't mind the company, after we went for coffee together I feel like I can tell him things I wouldn't tell anyone else. He has a fresh set off eyes that I need and I know he be honest with me if I asked him something so opening up to him was something different, he doesn't know me so he wont act like a big brother. However when I woke up from the school fire I seen something in his eyes that I cant forget, hurt. I know exactly what he was thinking; why was a paramedic in a fire, i'm sure he thought about the answer a couple of times but he knows the answer as I told him I lose someone in a fire so I wasn't losing my son, surely he could understand that.

"Temping but I'm only interest in getting something other then jello for food, help us out" I plead with him wondering if he go down to the cafe and get me something different and with a nod he disappears out the door, now I have a smile on my face. Watching him leave I lend my head back trying to come to an understanding about everything that just happened, but all I come up with is my husband and what he be thinking about everything that has happened. If he was still alive he would be giving me the lecture about home schooling our son even though its not the correct thing to do but he's not and I'm left looking after him, would he be ok with me moving on but the better question is would my son. I have never thought about moving on from his father but the more time I spend with the doctor the more time I'm wondering if its the right thing to do for my own sake and my son's, I know Tristan wouldn't want me to be lonely but he left a hole in my heart no one can fill except him. I hate how I'm thinking about this especially in a hospital bed.

Spending about an hour with the doctor archer I find myself relax, we spent the hour just talking and playing games, I still haven't told him much about my life even though he knows the most important things which are that I lost my husband and I have a son but other then that he knows nothing. However spending time with someone who isn't family was different he seems to listen and understand me like Tristan did but as we talk I found myself comparing him to Tristan wondering if they would of liked each other which is really a no brainer as they both seem to get along with everyone but the more time I spend with the doctor is less time I think about Tristan. I don't want to forget about him I don't know how I can but archer makes me forget about everything, if we met under different circumstances things would be different but we didn't but I still wonder what if I went there, how would my son feel about me dating someone other then his father, would it be cheating if I started dating someone else. I have all these thoughts but no one to talk to about them. Laying on the bed I turn to the window watching the world go past, its too soon to move on surely....