Media Secret: Hidden Johansson

Sleep deprived

I think it's now Wensday but it could be Thursday I have lost track and the days and night are the same. Brie is currently off sick because of the bruising around her neck she doesn't want to worry the rest of the team or have them ask 1000 questions and potentially get me fired. I haven't slept since the incident on that Saturday night, I don't trust myself.

I 'nap' for around 10 minutes after we have finished wrapping up a take, I have been doing mountains more scenes than and first week which adds on to the aches of my body and the overall tiredness. My whole body is numb and the number of takes that we have had to do increases every day because I'm struggling to remember my lines. I refuse to touch anyone unless I have to in a scene, I have become jumpier and stressed out because of the lack of sleep and fear. I am currently sat in the main tent in my chair half asleep watching everyone pass by me doing their normal thing when I hear an argument from outside the tent and more and more people heading that way to either be nosey or to get involved. "We discussed this last week" The voice sounds so familiar but I can't quite work it out in my state that's happened a lot too I have mistaken Brie for Tessa when they call my name at home, you think it would be hard with their voices being different but...

"We are behind schedule we have 2 more scenes that's it" I think its Kevin who responds.

"Thomas your needed on set, it's the family dinner scene" An assistant tells me pulling me away from my eavesdropping, I follow after her yawing to myself as we head over to the little house. "Action"

I walk into the little house seeing Chris, Claire and Nataile sat at the table, "Mother Welcome Home Father. Princess" I say before moving past the table the enter the room out the back. "Jupiter!" Natalie calls and my mind goes blank and I freeze. "Fuck"

"Cut"

We reset and go over the scene over and over again. "Take 24" I walk into the little house seeing Chris, Claire and Nataile sat at the table, "Mother Welcome home, Father. Princess" I say before moving past the table the enter the room out the back. "Jupiter!" Natalie calls, "Mother?" I shout back the question asking her what she wants. "Come eat with your mother" Chris booms in Thor's voice. "Not Hungry thank you" I call back through the door.

"I wasn't asking" Chris calls again this time I groan loudly mainly from the amount my muscles ache but the team don't know that. I sit at the table "Family disappointment incoming" I mumbles under my breath. "Mother says I can take over the protector of the realms when I'm old enough" Claire taunts across the table as I play with the food in front of me. "Mhm," I thumb. "Lady Jane? What if we had another child" Chris asks and Claire choaks and Natalie spits out her 'wine' at me as it covers me. I can't help but burst out laughing as I wipe my face.

"Cut" "Go from Chris, Take 26"
"Lady Jane? What if we had another child" Chris asks and Claire choaks and Natalie spits out her 'wine' at me as it covers me. " I am going to be sick." I gag before leaving the house wiping my face.

"Cut"

"Okay so the last one is of Jupiter and Jane!" The assistant calls and I move down to the bank ahead of me sitting on the floor, grateful I'm in a hoodie and Jeans I wrap the clothing around me in a sort of self-conscious cocoon. "Action."

We must have gone through this scene thousands of times at this rate it was too much dialogue for me to comprehend in my state I was exhausted and drained, I had no idea what my facial expressions where like or what time of day it was all I could now see was the sun was setting.

"Action, Take 45" is shouted with a sigh.

Natalie walks up next to me and ruffles my hair slightly before I pull away from her hand and she sits beside me. "You know Torunn isn't perfect." She tells me in a sweet tone. "Her name means Thor's Love, she is perfect she is the future goddess of thunder" I mumble looking out onto the dock of New Asgard. "Jupiter you are Bold and brave, strong and inquisitive. You survived five years without your sister or me. Your dad didn't know of you existed but here you are. Even though you don't have visible power doesn't mean you don't have any." She tells me and I just listen not taking my eyes from the water and I am so tired my eyes are stinging so i close them softly before reopening them. "I don't want to disappoint you, Father helped win the war against Thanos and you took up his mantel of protecting the Relms. Torunn can continue the legacy of Thor.." I say with my chin now quivering in the cold and the tiredness taking over my body. "You will never been a disappointment to anyone, both of you are the legacy of Thor, you help to keep new asgard a home. Not all power is seen just remember that" She tells me before wiping away my fallen tear and heading back inside, I stand up stretching out my hands and head inside after her. "Cut"