Broken But Beautiful (SnapeXReader) COMPLETE

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I tiptoed into the living room. Careful not to wake Severus. He was lying asleep on his back on the couch.

I slowly laid down next to him facing him. The whole front of my body was squished against him so I didn't fall off. I snuggled in close to him. I closed my eyes.

"Y/N?" I opened my eyes. I lifted my head up and smiled at him.

"Yes?" 

He laughed and pulled me back down. "You're so cute." He said lovingly.

"Oh whatever." 

He squeezed me to him. "You are!"

"I am glad you find it cute."

"Well what would you call it?"

"I- Umm- uh-"

"Exactly."

We laid in silence for a while but then I spoke.

"When is your birthday?"

"Why?" He asked coldly. I sat up and swung my legs over the side of the couch. He also sat up and scooted next to me on the couch but, a slight distance away.

"Because I want to know more about my boyfriend."

"I can tell you but I don't want you doing anything for it."

"Why not?" He sighed.

"Because birthdays aren't the best memories I have." I didn't want to push. I already knew about his childhood and I don't want to reopen wounds.

"Well, I will make all your future birthdays so good that you would start to love them!" 

He cocked an eyebrow. "Oh really?" 

I nodded. 

"How exactly?" He asked seductively. I rolled my eyes.

"Well, I would probably bake you a cake. Maybe make you dinner. Maybe watch a movie, cuddle, spend time together. Ya know, that kind of stuff." 

He smiled. "I would love that." I smiled back at him. "Sooooo, what do you want to do?" I shrugged. He slowly moved his hand to my knee. He locked eyes with me. I knew what he was suggesting. I slowly nodded. His eyes flicked down to my lips. I parted them slightly. He leaned forward and pressed his lips against mine. He slowly moved his lips and I moved mine back in response. His hand came up and rested on my jaw. His other hand slowly moved up my thigh. I felt myself getting wet. His hand stopped and he pulled back. I looked at him confused. Dread was gnawing at me.

"Did I do something?" I asked quietly. He shook his head.

"No. I am just making sure you want to do this."

"I do."

"Are you sure?"

"Severus. I love you so so so much. Yes I want to do this. In fact, I want to do this sooo bad." 

He smiled. "Alright then." He leaned back in and kissed me hard. He moved his hand up the rest of the way up my leg. His finger gently brushed against me. I took a sharp breath in. He pressed his fingers against me and broke the kiss. "Are-"

"Yes I am sure. Just, please." I begged. He slowly moved his fingers. My breath hitched. He smirked and started to move his hand faster. I moaned.

"Does it feel ok?"

"More than ok." I said. He pressed one of his fingers right on that spot. I moaned loudly. He moved his finger around on that spot. I felt something building in me. I kept moaning. I felt so embarrassed but I couldn't help it. I felt whatever was building was ready to crash down. "Sev, I am-"