Broken But Beautiful (SnapeXReader) COMPLETE

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Last night I had put the stink pellet in Severus's desk drawer. I felt absolutely no guilt. I had also placed the ring he gave me on his desk. He could probably figure out it was me. But who cares. He hates me anyways. I was currently sitting in the back of Severus's class. He hasn't looked at me or talked to me all class. He had large dark bags under his eyes. I was waiting for him to open the drawer. I felt angry and upset with him. He promised me. He promised me he would never do anything like that again, no matter what.

"Y/N." Said Draco from next to me.

"Hm?" I grunted.

"Are you ok? You look like you are going to cry." 

All of a sudden I was alert. I put on my best smile. "I am fine. I just zoned out." I assured him. He raised an eyebrow at me. "I promise." I said.

"Ok whatever you say Y/N." He turned back to his desk and continued writing. I told Severus to not touch me or talk to me outside of class stuff so I could figure out who I really liked. But now I don't need to decide because I am pretty sure Severus hates me. Draco isn't so bad. I do like him. I mean, he doesn't make me feel as special as Seve-

"WHO DID THIS!" Severuses screaming brought me back to reality. He had opened his desk drawer. Rage was displayed across his face. The disgusting smell of the stink pellet was finally hitting me. Others had their robes over their noses. Severus was looking around the room at the students. His eyes landed on me. His eyes bore into mine. I stared right back without blinking.

"CLASS DISMISSED." He barked.

"But sir, we still have thirty minutes left of class." Said a Hufflepuff girl. He broke our eye contact and snapped his head in her direction. She recoiled in her seat.

"I.Dont.Care." He said slowly and angrily. "CLASS DISMISSED!" He screamed. Everyone scrambled to their feet, grabbed their stuff and ran to the door. Everyone had already left when I got up at a normal pace and grabbed my stuff. "HURRY UP Y/N!" He yelled at me. 

I looked over at him and gave him the dirtiest look I could muster. "Don't you dare tell me what to do." I said in a low voice. He must have been shocked because he didn't say anything. I walked out of the room without looking back. That's right Y/N. Show him you don't give a shit about him. I was angry. I was angry that he broke his promise. I was angry that he lied to me. Angry that he made me cry and hurt myself. Angry that I still liked him.

Lunch:

I was sitting at the Slytherin table with Draco, Crabbe, and Goyle. I didn't even glance at the staff table. I was angry. I wasn't hungry so I just sat there as the boys talked. I have ignored everyone except these three all day. Emma and Hermione tried to talk to me during break but I just shrugged them off.

"Are you going to eat that?" Asked Draco as he pointed to the chicken and roll I had on my plate. I shook my head and pushed it towards him. He helped himself to the food.

"Are you ok Y/N?" Asked Crabbe. I nodded my head and gave him a small smile.

"You should eat Y/N...." Said Goyle.

"I am not hungry."

"You didn't eat at breakfast either." Stated Goyle. Oh that's it.

"Ya know what Goyle. It's none of your damn business." I yelled. Some heads turned to look at us.

"I am sorry I didn't mean to offend you." Said Goyle quietly. I could feel my body boiling

with rage.

"Y/N calm down. You are making a scene." Whispered Draco

"FUCK YOU!" I screamed at them. The great hall had gone silent now. I stood up and ran to the door. I ran all the way up to my dormitory to retrieve my special bag.

When I got into Moaning Myrtle's bathroom I closed the door behind me. I threw my bag on the ground as hard and screamed. I had never felt this angry in my life. What is happening to me? I ran a hand through my hair and took a deep breath. What Goyle said wasn't even that anger provoking. Why did I get so mad? It's probably that stupid Snape. I hate him. I absolutely fucking hate him. I went over to the wall I usually sat against and sat down. I got out my razor blade and got to work. I hate him for everything he has done to me. How can I still like him? I don't just hate him. I hate myself. I deserve to die and it will happen soon enough......