Broken But Beautiful (SnapeXReader) COMPLETE

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"Here are your clothes." Said Madam Pomfrey as she handed me my school robes. They smelled like roses. "I washed them for you."

"You didn't have to do that." I said.

"Yes I did. They were covered in blood."

"Oh. Well, thank you."

She nodded.

I walked over to the bathroom and got changed. When I came out Severus was sitting in the chair next to my bed.

I have been in the hospital wing for a week now.Madam Pomfrey wanted to make sure that I was healing ok.

Dumbledore has ordered that I am not allowed to be alone anymore, so all my stuff got moved into Severus's apartment. Severus would have made me stay with him even if Dumbledore had not said anything. Neither one of them wanted to take any risks. I tried to explain to Severus that I didn't try to kill myself but I dont think he really believed me. It was like I wasn't even there when it happened. I made no choice to kill myself. It just happened. It was an accident.

I haven't really been feeling like myself. I get angry over every little thing and I cry all the time.

Severus stood up and smiled. I made my way over to him. "Are you ready to go?"

I grimly nodded. Severus interlaced our fingers and led me out of the room.

"Your stuff is in our room." Said Severus once we entered his apartment. 'Our?' Oh yeah. I have to share it with him now.

I nodded and walked over to the bathroom.

I shut the door and leaned against it. I exhaled and tears came with it. I slid down the door. I tried to stifle my sobs as best as I could. I miss Emma so much.

Someone knocked on the door. "Are you ok?" Asked Sev. He sounded worried.

I wiped my tears. "Yeah." I stood up and took a deep breath. I opened the door. Severus was standing there. He looked me up and down, inspecting me. "I am fine." I said.

He gave me a curt nod. "Well do you want to go to the Great Hall for dinner? Otherwise I could make something here."

I thought about it. Do I really want to go see people? Everyone would talk about it. All of a sudden an idea came to me.

"I want to go to the Great Hall."

Severus furrowed his brows. "Are you sure that's best?"

"I will be fine Severus." I said annoyed.

"Fine. Let's go then."

Severus and I walked to the Great Hall together. We got just outside when someone said my name. I turned around.

Draco.

"I will see you inside." Said Severus to me. He walked into the Great Hall.

"Hey Y/N." Said Draco.

"Hi."

"Are you doing ok? I haven't seen you in awhile."

I shrugged. "I dont know."

"Well I am always here for you. Are you going to go eat?" He asked.

"Yeah in a little while."

"Alright. Well, you can sit with me if you want."

"Thank you Draco."

He took a step toward me and hugged me. I couldn't get the energy to hug him back so I left my arms limp at my sides.

He pulled back and gave me a small smile. "See you later?"

I nodded. "Yeah. Bye."

"Bye." Draco turned and went into the Great Hall.

I looked around me and didn't see anyone. I took a deep breath and headed off toward the Gryffindor tower.

"Phoenix." I said to the Fat Lady.

"Wrong."

"What?"

"I said that was wrong." She sang.

"No it's not!"

"Even if it is right, I am not allowed to let you in."

"I am not allowed in?"

"That's what I said."

"But I am a Gryffindor."

"Doesn't matter. Dumbledore ordered it."

"But-"

"Leave me alone girl. I have a chess game with a hot sexy knight."

I clenched my teeth and my fists. I turned around and stalked away.

I turned down a hallway and Severus was running toward me.

"Y/N!" He exclaimed. He crushed me into a hug. "Where the hell did you go?" 

"I just went for a walk."

"You told me you wanted to eat dinner!"

"Well I wasn't hungry so I went for a walk. It's not a big deal."

"Not a big deal? You tried to kill yourself a week ago!"

"No I didn't. I already told you it was an accident!"

"Whatever Y/N. Let's go." He grabbed my hand and dragged me back to his apartment.

I stormed into the bedroom and grabbed a blanket and pillow.

"What are you doing?" Severus asked.

Ignoring him, I walked out to the living room and put them on the couch. I laid down underneath the thin blanket. "Y/N please." He said. I pulled the blanket over my head and ignored him.

All of a sudden the lights in the room went out. I heard him walk over to the bedroom and heard the blankets rustle.

My tears quietly hit the pillow with soft thumps.