Broken But Beautiful (SnapeXReader) COMPLETE

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The rest of Christmas break had gone by quite uneventfully. Although, Harry and I started talking more and I was thankful for it. I had missed talking with Harry. Draco and I also hung out quite a bit. We spent a lot of time in the library or in empty corridors. It was now January. Everyone had returned and classes continued on as usual.

One afternoon I was sitting in the potions classroom with Severus doing my lesson. The lessons were quite boring. I just read or did homework and he would help me with it if I needed it. Severus got up from his desk and walked over to the desk I was sitting in.

"Ya know Y/N, you don't need to come down for these lessons any more. I trust that I can keep a good eye on you without them, and I also trust that you will come to me if you need anything." He said.

"Are you sure?"

"Well, unless you want them." he said. I shook my head.

"No. I don't like hanging out with you if it's mandatory. It's more fun if it isn't." he smiled at that.

"Well, you can always come and hang out with me whenever. Unless I am busy."

"Of course." he looked down at my hand.

"I see you are still wearing the ring." he observed. I smiled at him.

"Of course. I wouldn't take it off for the world. Look" I pulled my sleeve up a little so he could see the bracelet. In return he lifted up his own sleeve to show me he was also wearing his. We both laughed. "Reckon we have the same idea then?" I said.

"I suppose so." he smiled big at me.

"Well I gotta go. Harry will be expecting me at the library soon.".(Harry had asked me to the library this morning to hang out.) His smile faded.

"Do you really have to go? Especially to hang out with Potter?" he spat Harry's last name.

"Yes I do and don't talk bad about Harry. He is my friend ya know." he rolled his eyes.

"Whatever." he said. I stood up and gathered my things. I started to walk away but he grabbed my upper arm to stop me. I turned around.

"Wh--" he cut me off by pressing his lips to mine. Shit, should I really be doing this? Letting Severus kiss me? This is technically cheating on Draco and I really don't want to be a cheater. After a few seconds he leaned back. I blushed. "Bye." I said. He winked at me. I turned and walked out the door and into the corridor.

When I got to the library, Harry was already sitting at a table in the back waiting for me.

"Hey Y/N!" he said happily.

"Hey Harry" I said as I sat down next to him.

"How are you doing?" He asked. Well, I am doing pretty good. I just got kissed by Severus sooooooo. But I can't say that! He would think I am weird.

"I am doing alright. What about you?" He smiled.

"I am doing great."

"That's good to hear."

"So what have you been doing in your free time?"

"Mostly hanging out with Emma, Hermione, and Draco." His smile faltered at the name 'Draco' but he covered it up quickly.

"So you and Draco are a thing huh?" 

I nodded my head. "Ya I guess." 

Harry looked down at his watch. "Oh shit, I am really sorry Y/N but I forgot I had quidditch practice in a few minutes."

 He is clearly lying. He probably is just upset about Draco. I would have thought that he would be over it by now. I thought.

"Oh ok." 

Harry got out of his seat.

"Umm, bye?" I said.

"Bye" he called over his shoulder at me as he sped walked over to the door and left.

That night I laid in bed staring up at the canopy above my bed. I had the curtains around my bed closed. I had prepared because I knew I had some thinking to do tonight, and I didn't want to risk anyone seeing me cry. Draco or Severus? I like both of them equally. But, I must like one more than the other. Right? Ughhhh this is so complicated. Draco makes my heart flutter all the time and makes me nervous but I feel a bit more relaxed with Severus. I really don't want to cheat on Draco. After a while of thinking I came up with something: Maybe I shouldn't let Severus touch me at least until I figure this out. I am going to have to let Draco because well, he is my boyfriend. It's just so confusing when I have two people touching and kissing me. It will be easier with just one. Right? I guess I will have to tell him tomorrow after class. I had potions first thing in the morning. My mind was made up. I was going to tell him not to touch or kiss me after class.