Wreck (Royal Series #4) COMPLETED

Chapter Four

Chapter Four

The Queen

"What happened to you? You were like in a daze a moment ago," Aivie said habang naglalakad kami papasok sa kwarto ko. Hindi ako sumagot at tahimik na sinara na lang pinto sa kwarto bago umupo sa kama, katabi niya,

"He... he called me wife a while ago," mahina kong sabi. Para akong nanghihina kahit ilang minuto na din simula nang makaalis si Sean.

I looked at Vie but she was smiling wide at me. "Ate! You're blushing! Ohmy! I have to meet this husband of yours!" Tuloy-tuloy na sinabi niya kahit umiiling na ako sa kaniya.

I am not blushing, damn it.

Bakit naman ako kikiligin sa pagtawag niya sa akin nang ganon? Eh magiging mag-asawa naman talaga kami so I am actually his wife. Kaya... kaya bakit ganito ang pakiramdam ko? Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko! Am I palpitating?

Napatayo ako sa kama at pilit na pinapakalma ang sarili. I was pacing back and forth when I noticed Vie's creepy smile on me. "No," I denied what she stated earlier. "I am not blushing, Aivie."

I thought she will be at least taken back with the coldness of my voice but she did the otherwise. Mas ngumiti pa siya sa akin at tinuko ang ulo niya sa magkabilang kamay habang nakadapa sa kama ko.

"Then why are your cheeks red? And your eyes! It kept on avoiding me," she pouted.

"I said, I'm not, Aivie. Stop it," madiin na sabi ko.

"Stop, what?" Parehas kami napalingon nang may nagsalita.

It's Kuya Vince who entered my room without my permission. Sanay naman siya at ginagawa lang niya ito kapag nandito si Aivie kaya walang issue sa akin. He is aware that it is prohibited to enter a woman's room whenever she is alone.

"Kuya Vince!" Tuwang-tuwa na tawag ni Aivie kaya napailing na lang ako.

But I stopped when I noticed something. I smirked at Kuya Vince. "Where have you been, Kuya?"

Nakipag-apir muna siya kay Vie bago humarap sa akin. "School, why?"

"You smell like a woman."

Nanlaki ang mata niya at inamoy agad ang polo na suot niya. We were just looking at him as he tightly closed his eyes and muttered a curse under his breath.

"Does Mother know?" I asked and sat beside Vie in my bed.

At least I managed to remove the spotlight from me.

"As if your mother cannot know these things..." iling-iling na sabi niya.

He is right for that matter. Mother... has her ways of knowing things. Kahit hindi namin sasabihin, malalaman niya parin. It's scary sometimes but it feels secure at the same time.

It was the night that day when I was called to our library again. Tahimik lang ako sumunod hanggang sa makarating kami sa pinto. I was expecting to see my parents but I was welcomed by my mother.

She motioned me to come inside and I did. I sat on the seat she pointed. Tinignan ko siya pero wala akong nakitang kahit na ano sa mata niya.

"What is it, Mother?"

She took a deep breath before transferring her gaze to me. "How should I start this Blaire..."

"We were very young when we were forced to take the responsibility of ruling this clan. It was difficult even though we both knew we had enough training and lessons. Reading and learning what to do in that specific conflict is different from actually facing it."

Nanatili ang tingin ko sa kaniya. I wanted to hear her out. Kung bakit sa ilang taon simula nang magkaisip ako ay ganito ang turing niya sa akin. I've always wanted to know her story because that is what my Father taught me before.

That there will always be a reason behind everything.

And Mother's treatment towards me is not an exception.

Mother gave me a tight smile. "You must be confused now but maybe this is me apologizing for passing you this burden at such a young age as well."

"Did Father talked to you to do this?"

She shook her head. "He will never impose something like that to me, Blaire. You know your father," natawa ako sa sinabi niya dahil totoo naman iyon. "It's just when I saw you and Sean earlier, I felt a slap on my face. I can see that you aren't ready for marriage yet I am pushing you to it."

"Mother."

"I'm such a bad mother to you, am I? Depriving you of childhood and forcing you to take over our position to save our clan," malungkot na sabi niya.

I saw the tears building up in my mother's eyes. I've never seen her cry or even seen her at her weak state. Palagi siyang malakas sa paningin ko. Kaya ang makita na ganito siya ngayon, hindi ko maiwasan ang malungkot.

Sa ilang taon na kasama ko siya, tiniis ba niya ang lahat? Tinago ba niya ang lahat ng sakit niya? Kinubli ba niya ang pagod niya para lang hindi ko ito makita?

My Mother was never fond of speaking her emotions. Kuya Vince always tells me na katulad niya ako. I wasn't able to show any weakness because I have Aivie who's always looking up to me. I wanted to be a good example for her.

While I have my mother that I always look up to. I am her exact replica, even her traits. Her serious facade and cold attitude towards the people. The superior character that she have... iyon ang mga nakuha ko sa kaniya.

That's why I cannot help but sympathize with her. Because I know what she feels, the burden of becoming a role model for the person that looks up to you.

Nagulat ako nang hinawakan niya ang kamay ko. She had that resolve in her eyes that I know I cannot refuse. Kahit naman may hinanakit ako sa kaniya, alam ko naman na sa oras na humiling siya sa akin ay mabilis ko iyon pagbibigyan.

"Your Father and I... we want to take a rest now from our position. I know it's wrong to give you the burden but it's better if we will abdicate on our own than wait for the advisors to make a move. At least if we do this, your position will be secured. They won't try to replace you because we willingly transferred you the crown."

And I know the exact reason why the advisors can threaten them to replace me. "Is it because your firstborn is a woman?"

My mother weakly looked down and nodded. "I will never be sorry for having you as my firstborn, Blaire. Keep that in mind. But I can't control the advisors and the scholars in our clan. They will surely protest against you if we... if we go against them."

"I-I understand, Mother. Don't worry about me, okay? I'll be okay."

I have to be.

Because I can never be the weak Queen that they could trample on whenever they like.

I will become a Queen that they will bow down to and serve with their utmost effort and capability.

That... I promise.

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