Wreck (Royal Series #4) COMPLETED

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Eighteen

Tears

The thorns I built around myself are slowly bending and melting. The same goes for the walls I used to protect myself, it's now crumbling and shattering into pieces. And lastly, the love for my sister that I earned for many years is slowly vanishing and disappearing into thin air. 

Anger and disappointment towards her are both seeping into my heart, it eats the love and care I have for her. Because no matter how much I try to justify her actions, what she did was something I cannot let go of.

"She has been transferred in a private room under another name, Your Majesty." Tumango ako at tumayo na mula sa pagkakaupo. It took me hours to have courage and face my sister.

Sean was trying to stop her drunk driving. Iyon ang balita sa akin tungkol sa aksidente na kinasangkutan nilang dalawa. The guards called Sean using Vie's phone because he is her top recent contact, probably because they met earlier that day. Hindi ko lang alam bakit nagpaiwan pa si Aivie at hindi sumunod kay Sean pagkauwi nito kanina.

Then the accident happened. It was an unfortunate accident because only one of them is unconscious while the other is now stable. 

"A-Ate..." takot na tinig ni Aivie pagpasok ko sa kwarto niya. She was sitting on her bed at kita ko ang mga galos na natamo niya mula sa akisdente.

Seeing her in this condition... seeing her up close and actually witnessing the effect of the accident makes me waver. Because in the end, she is my sister. I still don't want her to be hurt, even when I'm breaking. 

I momentarily closed my eyes and took a deep breath before opening it again. Aivie was crying with her head down. Hindi niya alam kung paano ako haharapin dahil ramdam niya ang panlalamig ko sa kaniya.

I walked closer to her and opened my mouth to speak in a calm voice. "Why?"

Umangat ang tingin niya sa akin at parang tinantya kung ano ang sasabihin. "A-Ate..."

"Stop... calling me that!" I snapped. "Please don't... when you didn't even consider me as one."

"No, Ate! No... it wasn't like that!" She raised her voice and tried to get up from bed. She successfully did and removed the necessary needle in her hand. Nanlaki ang mata ko sa ginawa niya. She went to me and held my arms tightly.

"Ano ba sa tingin mo ang ginagawa mo? Bakit ka tumayo?" Galit na tanong ko na binalewala niya. 

"P-please hear me out..." Nanginginig na boses na sabi niya. "You are my Ate... you will always be."

"Then why... why did you try to covet my... husband?"

I was brought back to those days where I would witness the glimmer in her eyes whenever she talks about Sean. I would hear her enthusiastic glee whenever we talk about him. While seeing her happy, I would ignore the pinch in my heart, the question about my feelings towards Sean at the back of my mind, and the loneliness that I kept inside me.

For her.

It was always for her. I took the responsibility for the crown because I don't want her to be burdened by it. I used myself as her shield to protect her innocence and freedom. I forgot my peace and happiness to fill up her emptiness. 

Kaya hindi ko maintindihan, saan ako nagkulang? I was trying to be the best sister for her... I was giving her my all while losing myself at the same. Hindi niya hiningi, alam ko, pero being the older already gives way to this kind of responsibility.

Mali ba ang ginawa ko? Is this my karma for trying to be the best for her?

"What you did... was immoral by our law. But to me, it was disrespect." Sa sinabi ko ay unti-unting nalaglag ang minsang pagkakapit niya sa braso ko. It was like she finally realized the pain she inflicted me.

Nanatili ang tingin ko sa kaniya kaya kita ko ang tanong sa mata niya na paano ko nalaman ang pinakatatago niyang sikreto. "You are very transparent, Aivie. Vocal and open to your feelings and thoughts. And I... am the one who watched you grow up so how could I not know?"

"I gave everything I have for you... every single thing. Kailanman hindi kita pinagdamutan. And he was the only person... the only person that I want to keep by my side. Am I suppose to give him up for you as well?"

Because I can't and I don't want to. Wala din sa plano ko iyon. This will be the first time that I will be selfish for myself. This time, this is for me. And nothing, no one, can deprive of this.

I won't be ever sorry for being this selfish for Sean. That guy... did nothing but good to me. He was like my own kind of angel who takes care of me and who was always there for me. If I let him go for others, then I will regret that decision for the rest of my life.

My feelings for him may still be unknown to me... or I already know but still don't want to admit, nevertheless, he is my husband. Just mine.

Pero... ano na ang susunod na mangyayari? For sure, ministers and officials won't just let the issue go. This involves the King of the West Clan. Hindi nila ito basta basta lamang papalagpasin. They will investigate thoroughly to know the exact scenario. That, or they will make their own story to close the case.

Tumingin ako kay Aivie na ngayon ay nakatayo parin sa harap ko nakatulala lamang habang patuloy na umiiyak. Gusto... gusto ko siyang aluin pero alam ko sa oras na ginawa ko iyon, hindi ko mapapanindigan ang desisyon kong maging matigas sa kaniya. She isn't a child anymore and she has to own up her mistakes.

Dahil hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay kaya kong saluhin ang mga bala para sa kaniya.

Pinilit kong patatagin ang loob ko bago nagsalita. Tanging tahimik na pag-iyak lamang ang naririnig sa loob kaya mas lalo along nanghihina. If I have other choice... a better one, I would take it. Pero sa pagkakataong ito, wala akong ibang magagawa.

"I..." Tumingin agad siya sa akin nang marinig akong nagsalita. Her eyes screams forgiveness... 

"I will abandon you, Aivie Maguerite."

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