Wreck (Royal Series #4) COMPLETED

Chapter Twenty-Six

Chapter Twenty-Six

Wife

"Dusk, let go of Blaire," Lady Renee added. Madiin ang pagkakasabi nito na parang saway kay Dusk iyon. 

He slowly loosened his hold on me pero ako ang hindi makabitaw dahil sa pagkahilo ko. Lady Renee took initiative and guided me towards their sofa. After she helped me settle, tumayo din siya para bumalik sa kusina. It was silence that enveloped us all.

Masyado akong nabigla sa pagdating ni Sean, I didn't expect to see him here. I hoped, maybe. But it was a very small hope na makikita ko siya dito. Never in my wildest dream, I would actually see him in flesh.

When the nauseous feeling subside, I stood up from the couch. The twins are behind me, nakaupo sila parehas sa may dining table. Sean, on the other hand, was leaning on the door. Hindi ko mabasa ang expression niya pero mas pinili ko parin na lumapit sa kaniya. 

But I stopped midway when I realized I should apologize for the ruckus that I brought. 

"Lady Renee, we'll... I'll go ahead na po. I would like to apologize for the commotion, that wasn't my intention."

She looked awfully worried but I smiled at her to give assurance. "Hindi ka na ba.." she trailed off pero umiling ako. 

"I feel better na po. I'm sorry po sa istorbo," nahihiya kong sabi. I just got here pero ang gulo na agad.

Tumango siya at tumingin sa likod ko. "Take care of her, Sean," bilin nito bago ko naramdaman yung hawak niya sa braso ko. He slowly guided me on my way out of the house and led me towards his car. Tahimik niya iyong binuksan at inantay ako makapasok bago sinara.

He started the engine and drove away. Hindi na ako nagtanong kung saan kami pupunta dahil mukhang kabisado niya ang daan, malamang dahil dito siya nakatira ngayon? 

Pumikit lang ako saglit pero pagdilat ko nakahinto na kami. I don't know where we are but there's a bridge above the river. It's almost sun down kaya kitang kita namin ang pagbaba ng araw. 

"How are you?" Panimula niya nang nakita akong kumilos. 

I took a deep breath before answering. "A bit light-headed, but fine," I said kahit na gusto kong isa-isahin sa kaniya ang nararamdaman ko. I suddenly felt the huge barrier between us. It's not a comfortable silence... this is kind of feeling is for strangers. And we are far from being strangers yet it feels we are.

"Aren't you going to ask me?" 

That was the only time I gave myself a chance to look at him closely. His face remained the same to me, parang walang nangyari. Pero wala nga ba? We've been constantly running around in circles. Him, giving me the courage to ask yet him, avoiding it at the same time. Me, taking his bait and ending up with nothing.

"Are you going to give me the answers that I was looking for?" 

Pumikit siya nang mariin at parang nahihirapan ako sagutin. Somehow, I felt his pain... the pain of not knowing what to do. The pain of being helpless. And the pain I keep on burying because it's too much. 

"I... didn't have the courage to face you or anyone for that matter. I was the one who asked to be freed from you yet I felt suffocated without your presence. Like a fool, right?" He asked and chuckled to himself.

Then he rested his back on the seat. "I was really lost back then. I badly wanted to scream and reason out that I remember everything... but then there's you. The part of my memory that I don't remember. That's when I realized that, I really have a missing piece."

"I feel unsettled and uneasy whenever I think about that missing piece. Gusto ko malaman ano ka sa buhay ko kahit na sinabi nila sa akin kung sino ka. But then, no matter how much I try to ransack my mind for answers, there's none."

Umiwas na ako ng tingin sa kaniya at ginaya siya na nakatingin lang sa harap namin. The sun is already setting down... it means the end, right? Is this the end of our chase? The one that would patch up our wrecked fate? The one that will heal our silent wounds?

"But the thing is... I could handle the uneasiness. What I can't is the pain in your eyes whenever you look at me. You were looking for someone inside of me that was buried deep. You were deeply hoping that he would appear again and I was shattering that every moment."

"Blaire, I won't apologize for stepping away and embracing the freedom because, at that time, it was what I think I needed the most. I was slowly losing myself while you were trying so hard to recover the pieces of me."

He sighed. "Because back then, mas mahirap ang makita ka sa ganoong sitwasyon. I badly want to come back for you, you know that? But if I do... without recovering my missing piece, isn't too unfair for you? You have to face the reality every second we spend together that I can't remember you... and I guess that was too cruel."

"But you are here now..." I stopped and slowly asked. "Does it mean, you recovered the missing piece?"

Matagal bago siya sumagot pero hindi ko parin siya tinignan. I waited patiently as I watch the remaining rays of sun disappear. 

"It was worth it, isn't? Ever since I discovered this spot, I've always wanted to bring you here because this place is so magical. It was this place that gave me the answers. In this exact place, the question that I held for so long finally answered. And in here, I was able to recover my missing piece."

I looked at him with wide eyes. He's... now okay. He remembers me! I am the missing piece and he recovered me! 

"Sean... this is real, right? I... I am not dreaming?"

He chuckled and pulled my arm towards him so he could give me a hug. I felt him kissing the top of my head and tightening his hold around me. My tears fell and I just found myself crying in his chest as I wrapped my arms around him.

"I'm back, wife."

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